happy new year

happy new year, tomorrow is paul;s birthday and mon journeys so i am making major cupcakes and cake.hoping and praying, knowing in gods number system 8 is significant, this will be a glorious year................2007 had a lot of hard hits, although i must say on a ministry level it was awesome.rose and i both received from one of our friends the book, taking the field, and in it it explains gods purpose for reaching out to others. so we will be back in prayer for the next month seeking god for our next step. i have felt this like i need to be in prayer step back and reevaluate. relationships have been built, needs have been met and we will continue that but god has so much more. isaiah 61 the spirit of the lord is on me, because the lord has appointed me to preach good news to the poor. he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty for the captives, and release from darkness the prisoners........................whatever god does will fall into this word somehow. well back into prayer and we will move when god speaks.............

chrismas

christmas eve at our house was nice, my mom and sister renee and boyfriend scott my brother dennis and laurette ashley my niece who gets bigger and bigger everytime i see her, taller than me. wow. alicia and owen, jordan and laura, justice, destiny christian, and of course journey and caleb. paul and me, our house was packed, everyone chowed and exchanged gifts and it was nice. god is soooooo good. the spiral ham and the choclate cream pie as always were hits and were devoured. it took the kids over an hour to open their presents and i didnt have hardly any money and have learned over the years to not go overboard but paul who never is extravagant went totally overboard, which totally shocked me. but we all pitched in and got him this awesome leather love seat recliner and he loved it. all i did was pray for the things i wanted everyone to have and god was faithful. praise god.................merry christmas

been awhile

havent blogged in quite awhile, having trouble with this computer, been very sick and bit off a lot more than i could chew in the last few months. i am now in the process of downsizing my life. God first..............my husband then family, then ministry.food pantry is good, received a large freezer yesterday, thought whoa god what are you going to be doing with that? if he fills it as i suspect he will, we will definetely need more teams but i got scared for a moment,,but of course He has it covered. we ahve given thru god and the genorsity of others sO MUCH...praise god. we still have no permanent pastor and i remember complaining to my self about it one day and god clearly reminding me of the israelites in the wilderness, i repented fast. whenever god is ready, it is HIS call. and we ahve so much to be thankful for during this time, he has done so much in us and thru us, how could i complain.? well if anyone is out there still reading please pray for me with this awful cold. god bless susan

My Favorite Things/椎名林檎(Lorie Morgan)

I LOVE THIS SONG

byrons day

well today byron gave the message , great job byron, he preached on the rapture the tribulation and the millenium. he did an awesome job and spoke in a way everyone understood a subject that i would find a little hard. i wouldve handed out the left behind series and said please watch this. byron thru god led two people to salvation during basket delivery and one today after that message. god is using byron and i personally am so thankful to see him smiling again. byron and i have had our diferences but i have always had nothing but great respect and admiration for him, a few said next week is my turn, i thought ok, but then kinda got a little sick to my stomach thinking about it, i am not shy by any means but that would really be out of my comfort zone. im sure they were kidding, but im open to whatever god wants. hoprfully our new pastor is coming soon...............praise god

busy busy day

today was sooo busy, delivery of all the thanksgiving baskets, amy looked so worried getting everything in order, but as always she pulled it off, and every basket was full and given out. praise god, then we had two very nice baby showers together for janie and katie. that was very nice.also today was special as our deacon rose gave the message, i was so proud of her,i thought byron would be giving it, but it was nice to see rose and she did well, obviously in preparation for gods calling on her life. life is good and god is awesome................

god is faithful

when god first laid the food pantry ministy on my heart, the one concern i had was god please dont let amys ministry miss one single basket because of this ministry, the thanksgiving basket ministry was important too, and i told amy from the start, i wanted her to continue that. all week i have been praying for god to provide for that and amy stood up there so humbly today saying we were giving 11 baskets, 11 short of last lear but that was ok, if thats what god wanted that was ok. amy is so sweet, so i get home and i say jordan donate something please for thanksgiving baskets we need more, he said yes which turned into, praise god a weekly donation to food pantry as long as i reassured him that was part of tithing, of course it is, so praise god. then im thinking who do i know in the community that could give turkeys, the first selectman came right to mind as i have known him for years, so i call rose for her advice, thinking is it ok to solicit turkeys? im ready and willing to do it. she says, susan dont even worry we already got a large donation today from one of the members to get more baskets and the leftover is going to food pantry. god is amazing. the message today was on how awesome is our god.....oh yeah..... so anyways i just said a little prayer, god if you put the first selectman in my path this week, i will speak to him about helping with food pantry, so we will see. dont know if thats gods will or not, but we will see. and keep thinking next year christmas, we are going to do something for the children, write the vision make it plain, oh yeah. praise and glory and honor all to jesus.

the names of god

i love hearing all the names of god. i get a voice mail every morning from pastor jamal bryant and today it was on the names of god and i dont remember all of them, but as i was listening i was in awe of god as always, jehovah jirah our provider, jehovah rapha our healer, jehovah tsidknew'bet that is not right, but it is our righteousness, jehovah nissi our banner. wow i love the names of god and will do a study on them. yesterday my mom and i walked with one of the ladies in our weigh down and decided twice a week we will commit to this, she talks alot but she is so interesting the 45 minutes flew by like nothing. today lisa nad i had lunc at my house with another one of the ladies in our group, i made chef salad and apple pie. what a weird combo, but neither of them complained and it was a nice visit and laura my daughter joined in which i was thankful for.tommorow night is my turn for prayer group to meet at my house so all day i have been shaping meatballs, i cant have people come and not feed them. this is why i am overweight. we gave three boxes for food pantry this week and know their is enough for one more, just waiting on god, but someone has come to mind, so if i still have this urging we will do it after church on sunday. god is so good he warns me always ahead of time when opposition is coming and i did get a little, as some do not feel food pantry is important but god keeps impressioning on my heart ecc 11, which to me is saying keep going do as i told you and trust me. there will always be someone who disagress with what god tells you, not like it or be jealous. i should definetely have learned that by now. i still get surprised but i definetely recuperate and shake it off way faster. praise god he has always showed himself faithful and vindicated me. thank you jesus. he is definetely my vindicator. every tongue that rises against me in judgement i shall condemn, this is the heritage of the servants of the lord. wow has this word stood the test of truth in my life. thank you jesus. even with all the good things in the ministry, the enemy has tried to hit me hard but god is knocking every single hit out one by one. thank you jesus. god is faithful , i love that song i put on my blog, jesus is the best thing that ever happened to me, this is the truth. well gotta go as it is up at 4.30, this is getting old but i have made some good friends and have had major chances to witness. one woman is a back slider who always tells me she misses god. he is working on her. god is missing her too.

martha munizzi jesus is the best thing

so true

martha munizzi no limits

the time is now..........

martha munizzi fill this room

god is on the move

wow what a week, i am a little tired. packed our 9th box of food today since sunday, cannot believe we ministerd to nine families with food this week. praise god, his hand is in this all the way, and now we have a church full of clothes to give away, i have already found a few food pantry families willing to come in and take a look, what a way to get them in to meet some more of us. praise god..........it did take a little toll on me, i just want to get under the covers and go to sleep. thank god for rose, the practical one who keeps me grounded, she says we dont have to do everything in one day.........praise god. looks like we may be losing our interim pastor, that made me almost cry as he has grown on us which must mean our permanent one is coming. cannot wait to see who god has for us, thank god pastor graves isnt staying any longer if i was already about to cry.........i thank god for the time we have had him, and know he is being prepared to be someones pastor, i pray he walks out all god has for him..............blessings in abundance to him.....our weigh down has built quite a few new relationships with the community, i love this class, and the sharing of our lives and gods word. what an array of different gifts and personalities. life is exciting, i feel i am being prepared for something.......i feel i have been in preparation for years for what is ahead. what is god up to? it is exciting to think about, well going to rest now.......................let the lord be magnified, who takes pleasure in the prosperity of his servants..................

in the news

wow, what is god up to? today in the reminder on the first page i believe as i left the article at church, and have yet to read the entire article, was a story on feeding the needy in the community, and how if each of us did our part there was enough food so noone would go hungry. karen troiano from human services was being interviewed after a board meeting of the churches in the community and she said some were doing that very thing. she said human services had a food distibution, safe net had an emegency food outreach and the new partner on board helping was stafford community worship center, i thought wow, approx. 11 weeeks in and we are already being recognized for our outreach. praise god. we got a call for a large donation of clothing, so ron will be picking that up tommorrow and we will be praying where it is going. feed the hungry, clothe the naked, provide the poor wanderer with shelter. i feel god will fulfill this whole passage of scripture. praise god and to him be all the glory.

god is faithful

wow today i went to help eunice and rose pack boxes for children for samaitans purse, we got to wrap them for christmas and fill 10 boxes for boys and girls for christmas. praise god. there were about eight of us there. it was nice. as i was leaving one of the ladies came up and gave me a large check for food pantry. the largest single donation to date. i have been praying for god to give me a lump sum to get some things out of the way that we always need, so im not going out each week for every thing. man he answers fast. so today i got to go and get laundry soap, toothpaste, soap, shampoo, conditioner, trash bags, dish soap, toiletpaper, meats, and more enough for at least three weeks, maybe more. praise god....................god is moving and i am excited, i feel tomorrow at service he is going to show up in a big way, and wouldnt you know it, all three of my children will be there. god is awesome. praise truly does await him in zion.

perry stone

i am in the process of listening to a 2 cd set from perry stone on ''enemies in your own house'' i bought it a couple years ago and am just now listening. must be time. it explains how brother will come against brother etc. how judas betrayed jesus, and jesus called him familiar friend. telling us this will happen, we will be persecuted by those close to us for christs sake. and how we are to deal with it. we are to do as christ did and love. it also teaches on the great men of faith in the bible listed in hebrews, like david, samuel, abraham, noah and more and how they had persecution in their own house and how today their families would be called disfunctional. and how they also had sin, but god has them listed for their faith and how god only remembers the faith we have here, and the things done for him. i thought wow all the great men of faith were a little disfunctional, wooh.........................made me breathe a little easier. thank you jesus,

psalm 6811-14

the lord gave the word, great was the company of those who proclaimed it. kings of armies flee, they flee, and she who remains at home divides the spoils. though you lie down among the sheepfolds, you will be like the wings of a dove covered with silver, and her feathers with yellow gold. when the almighty scattered kings in it. it was as white as snow in zalmon. i cant even say how many times the lord has given me this word, and i would read it and read it and say ''what are you saying, lord? many times he has led me to it, and this morning as i was in the shower i was going over our bible verse for our weigh down class, which was seek ye first the kingdom of god, and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto to you. i thought how easy i know this. i live by it every day, believing if i do things gods way as best as i can and as HE leads, i will have all i need. nothing missing, nothing broken.

dunny cause i felt he was reminding me of psalm 68 and then i got revelation. even though i go thru so much in my personal life and with others of the faith, god is going to always show up in a powerful glorious way thru me. the rest of the verse reads ''a mountain of god is the mountain of basham, a mountain of many peaks is the mountain of basham. why do you fume with envy, you mountains of many peaks? this is the mountain which god desires to dwell in, yes the lord will dwell in it forever. sometimes i get upset cause i am out of one battle into another but as i press thru, god shows up in such a way all see his glory. and god always causes me to truimph in christ jesus. god is awesome.......two victories in jirdans life this week already, i cannot believe the hand of god, when god acts, who can reverse it? NOONE, praise god

and these signs shall follow those that believe

wow, service was amazing today. another food pantry recipient in the pews. praise god to him be all the glory.pastor graves preached, god moving in power, and these signs shall follow those that believe. he said he hasnt been able to preach the sermon he has prepared in quite awhile. praise god. he said the agenda was not his, is was not ours, it was jesus's praise god...............and the holy spirit moved in power and hit some on that alter like fire. god reminded me of the vision he gave me and elva approx five years ago. the alter being filled, people set free, delivered, healed and the masses coming in. i felt he was saying today was the start of that get ready. wooh.... then pastor graves said someone has a word, and noone spoke and i wondered if i was supposed to have given that word, but i will never speak till i am sure. i know i heard it, but i didnt know whether that was to be given, i wanted to give someone else a chance. forgive me lord, if i messed up. sometimes i feel i get used so much i dont want to be a hog. i know that is gods decision and next time i will speak up. never had any body make an open invitation to speak, usually it was like shut up susan. well anyways god is soooooo good and i as always stand in awe of him. and food pantry was filled to overflowing and we will be going out ministering jesus's love in a real tangible way. i am humbled to be a part of this gracious move of god. thank you jesus

the walls are being finished

wow havent blogged alot lately, working, food pantry, prayer ministry, my life are all busy. but nice busy. gods hand is totally open to ministry right now, and the freedom to move is liberating. i felt led to read nehemiah, and they were building the wall, and this made some angry, but this did not stop them for god was with them. our walls are being built, the way god wants them. the holy spirit is free to lead, guide, direct. center stage jesus...............................i love this. we are growing in unity and its wonderful to watch who god is using..........i just stand in awe of my faithful father. still no pastor, but we still have pastor graves for such a time as this. praise god. i fell we are being positioned in our plaes and will be in full battle gear equipped and ready to man our stations when god brings him. evrything will flow easy this time, exactly the way god wants. praise god.

song of solomon

the flowers appear on the earth, the time of singing has come. and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.the fig tree puts forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grapes, give a good smell.rise up my love, my fair one, and come away. oh how i love song of solomon. i was asking god to bring me to where to read and here i was, and i thought about how many times god has brought me here and when those times have been. they have been at my closest times with him and definetely when i am out and walking in the love of jesus ministering to others. i always chuckle when i read some of the words and sometimes even blush at the thought of the words that are being spoken. i know there are so many interpretations to what god is saying here and i have asked him more times to explain this book to me than any other. i think and i may be wrong but looking back at the times when he has brought me here, i believe he is saying he is pleased. it is wonderful to him when we are obedient and walking in love and extending the hand of god to others.''awake oh north wind, and come oh south, blow upon my garden, that its spices may flow out. let my beloved come to his garden, and eat its pleasant fruits.'' today was a great day at service although i did get an unpleasant interuption, god is good all the time, anyways. i thought what a mystery that peace that passes all understanding was, even when everything is falling around you, the holy spirit comes and gives you jesus's peace. and your glad, and you look at the situation and you should be crying but you cant, cause over you comes that sweet peace and all you can do in the midst of all the turmoil is praise god. we had an interim, interim pastor today and the message was simple but awesome. she said the love she feels in this church and the presence of god as we were praying at the alter for each other was beautiful. and we had new food pantry recipients in the pews. praise god.............................we also had a wonderful array of desserts as we were celebrating byron's 50th birthday. not so good for our weigh down, but i did go easy. praise god........... we did our deliveries and yesterday, miss rose who is now getting to be a cherished friend called me and said come on lets go out. she had filled the back of her car with pumpkins and we went out and let each child reprsented in food pantry outreach and others pick a pumpkin, the kids were thrilled...... what a way to get to talk to the parents and we did. it was nice.the waters are troubled and we are belly flopping in. praise god..................

what is new?

first i want to send a shout out to indiana. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MARC AND CINDY........................................may you have many many more.........and a praise out to our awesome god who beside HIM there is no other.....................we are about 9 weeks in to food pantry ministry, oh the faithfullness of god every step of the way. god is without a single doubt in this.....this week was a step of faith for me, i had taken what was provided and got enough things for two families, had one set family and waiting on god to show the other. i got a call form karen form human services, she had two emergency families for us. i took a deep breath knowing we had one covered but we were going to need to see god step up for this other one. but i in faith said sure god will provide. ok god this in your hands. we still had to get specific things asked for ,to meet the one delivery never mind the whole other one. lisa and i togethjer with rose and amy were able to fix that . now we ahd to wait for god. i sent out an emergency email to the people in our body requesting specific things, still have yet to see where that goes. but we did get an email form someone we have wanted to see back at church saying they will be supplying some of these things, praise god two prayers answered. went to prayer and one of the women who doesnt even have email, so didnt know the need yet, says here susan, thake this money we raised for womens ministry and use it for food pantry. i just couldnt believe hos quick god was. now we will have everything the people need and some. is got not totally faithful when he calls you to do something, and the unity in the body in this, i give him all praise and glory. also mens ministry is baout to kick off in a huge way, oh what god is going to do thru these men. i cannot wairt to see this. i am still reeling. praise god......

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our class

last nite was our weight class, well lifestyle change class. there were about twelve of us and four new women. one was my mom. i asked her to join and she said yes. praise god............rose did an awesome job as our leader as always. god is really using her, she has been such a blessing to me, such an encouragement with the food pantry ministry. such an encouragement all the way around. she leads by example and how important that is to me. its been a little different having jirdan and laura now both home, but i just know that i know this is orchestrated by god for this time.over the year jordan had come and spent alot of time in between his job, painting our downstairs and helping paul with the hardwood floors, the house looks totally different now. i said now you can start upstairs, im bad, ha? he said i am different now as he has not lived home in three years, different because he is older, i am more settled and i expect alot out of him. those things i may have overlooked i dont overlook now.

pray for me that all my words are from god and not my own mind, i need wisdom. but god is not a respector of persons, he gives wisdom to all who ask.................i know in my heart this is a mending time, he is coming out of a four year relationship and i know he is hurting, but this is necessary. .wow im am focused, praise god. starting to think again on what i am eating and drinking way more water, as that was one of our discussions. choices, choices, choices. lifw is all about choices, and i have made some dumb ones in the past. thank god for grace.praying alot in the spirit as i know not what to pray but prayer is a neccesity for all of us.we may be making a choice soon on a pastor. gods will. i like pastor graves but i am open to gods leading here. things are good in the church body, praise god to be able to say that. house has been cleaned and its all good..............the worship team has even chamged and marc mesereau is now the leader. thank god for john;s gift of teaching in that ministry. all glory to god........prayer meetings will be once a month at different house and i am looking forward to that as prayer is vital. hallelulah...........

error

THE WORD IS THE WRATH OF MAN WORKETH NOT THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD..............................

new word

''THE WRATH OF GOD WORKETH NOT THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD''new word for me, sometimes i will hear a word from god that i dont remember hearing before and it will stick with me and catch my atention and i feel the holy spirit reminds me of it so i can recite it over and over till out of my belly shall flow issues of living water i thought, well, what is this word really saying? i feel our anger in a situation does not help anything. maybe thats why gods word says love covers a multitude of sin. maybe this is why the penal system has failed so badly. how does god really feel on the death penalty? if this word is wriiten.i come to the conclusion that we should always try love, hope, forgiveness, prayer, i dont have all the answers but i know i got it for a reason.

Lifehouse's Everything Skit

god agve this to me for jordan, wow..............

Everything by Lifehouse

i had tio post again. it would be my background on my blog if i could have one.

whirlwind

wow what a whirlwind of a week...............but oh the faithfullness of god. our weight class brought in two members of the community, praise god, rose is having us write down everything we eat, oh man do i pick alot at everything. just the thought of being accountable to everything i put in my mouth.that rose is a wise girl, im getting to know her more and more, and i can truly say i love her. we are so different in our ways but i see where we complement each other, i can draw on her strengths, which are definetely not mine, and she can even draw on some of mine.god is working on alicia, it amazes me what he is doing with no help from me. i mean im not stressing about it. she said last week ma, i got to go out to the car, it was during worship and i said why? she said cause my tide is in the car. i said what and she said her tide, i chuckled cause it was so cute, i did tell her it is your tithe. all the years of example and mentioning it to them, wow......................now she is excited in giving to god. god is amazing. jordan is now at home. miracle, but i am trusting god to really reach him now.that is a miracle too. just for paul to say yes, it wont be for a long time, but god has plans for this boy and always has, and wooh.................laura is finding her way, out and about and feeling so much better in her skin. god is so good........still not where we need to be, but thank god not where we were. a work in progress. i keep thinking about pastor graves message and not knocking him at all i understand what he meant. when we get saved sometimes there isnt an instant change, i was not an instant change. god walked out every single thing with me, i was a hard one, cause i need to know why and in walking it out, you sure do learn alot, as painful as it can be,.and you sure dont forget it he spent more time in the beginning on perfecting my love walk than anything. giving, turning the other cheek, forgiving etc. which meant i had to give when it hurt, love when i didnt want to, forgive when i didnt feel they deserved it, and trust when it wasnt fair. at least i didnt think it was. gods ways are higher, so much higher. he is god and i am just susan..........wow we will be going out tommorow for food pantry and rose and amy on friday and eunice and lynn on monday. this week each team had their own family picked. praise god. and the provision this week. awesome.....god is breathtaking. you the man jesus...................

Christina Aguilera- Car Wash

i love this version, she can sing. i dont think god minds.

god is so good

man when god tells you to do something he really provides all the way thru when you step out. i got calls from two other young people in the church, two more monetary donations. every week god has come thru in a big way. these are all young girls, praise god he is moving thru them.the doors that are being opened in the community thru this.................exceedingly and abundantly, anyways isabelle suggested we give the large can donation to the safenet program so i also will be contacting them, this week and setting up something and feel led to help them out, to what extent im not sure yet. i got to know the man and his wife and son who run this, when there son will played on justice;s baseball team. totally weird. totally god..............the waters are troubled and i am jumping in...............................i am so excited about this ministry and what god is doing thru us at our church, it seems just about everyone is on board and doing something, i stand in awe.......we prayed for healing for the woman we ministered to this week. god keeps laying on my heart ''and these signs shalll follow those that believe, oh the sweep of the holy spirit as i write this..........WE JUST GOT TO BELIEVE' ooh..........the testimonies that are coming..............praise jesus

blessing

i forgot and i got to give praise to god. if i forget you oh jerusalem my chiefiest joy my tongue would have to cling to the roof of its mouth. god gave me that for my teeth issue. but it speaks of him not forgetting not one thing, and i have had a bad week. alot of things just thrown at me, unbelievable, i knew god was saying do you trust me susan? and i have to say, the more i got hit, the more i was thinking hey god...........whats uop? but then one of my christain friends called me and said susan come over i want to be a blessing to you. i have been praying for a dining room set, matching, with a big enough table for everybody at christmas and thanksgiving. this lady i cleaned her home when she was sick and i used to polish this set and always said wow this is nice. well i went over and she gave it to me, i knew god was saying susan i never forget that has been three years of praying. and it is BEAUTIFUL , it even has the server to put your food on, and a velvet lined silverware drawer and the design is wonderful. if we put both leaves in it fills the dining room, just about wall to wall. god is so good. so i still got ot hang on thru the rest of this, but he will come thru on this too. thank you jesus.......................

food pantry

today was nice at church, had a nice potluck to wish the gundersons good luck on their journey to their new church home. i will miss them. pastor graves preached on the rapture. ready or not here he comes....................we didnt get a lot in food pantry but that was ok, and then one of the young girls came up to me and gave me her donation , god bless her, so we will be going shopping. going to go and speak to karen troiano who heads up human services, i have known her for years, she gave me one of the best personal references one year that i have ever gotten. the kind things she said about me. never even knew she thought i was all that, i am not, but it was nice to hear she thought so.. anyways some of the women suggested i start working with her and they talked to her and she said there were forty families in stafford she could send us to. praise god....................i will be calling her this week, cant wait to get together with her, she helped me and my children years ago in such a big way. i knew her when she was karen greika.i am excited to have the opportunity. amy will be doing thanksgiving baskets again and cant wait to see god come thru again in this ministry. praise god.................j

why so downcast? o my soul.........................................................

Lifehouse's Everything Skit

i saw this and couldnt believe it, this is the way it really is. praise god

Everything by Lifehouse

Nothing But the Blood

praise truly did await him in zion

this has been a week of reflection. i was remembering last summer and the tough time.oh how my faith had been shaken. sometimes being obedient hurts....but god said praise awaited him in zion, and oh how it did........he was faithful to every word, even though i will say i didnt understand the reasonng then. god dont have to tell us everything, because he is god. but he was true to his word. rose becoming deacon, all the way god, change up in leadership, oh my god.............the gifts of the holy spirit working in unison, gods will...............the food pantry ministry, that gods grace to me,him being faithful even when i wasnt so faithful, cause i didnt want to hang on, but he kept saying stay, so where could i go. praise you jesus..........................................

keep praying

weird how god just comes thru , and suddenly. i have been praying for and witnessing to one of my friends for years, she always has an answer for why not,,,,,,,,,,,i always say jeez god she has a wall up. stubborn, but not to stubborn for god. god definetely has had his hand on her life, all her life without a doubt. today she calls em and we are talking and she says susan when will you be home on friday and i tell her , and she says ill be ther . i said for what, not carig thta shes coming, but still curious. she says you know, that blessing thing to do with jesus, you pray for me. i said ask him into your life, because no man comes to the father except thru the the son. and she says ya, that thing you know.i just thought oh my god, my most stubborn friend in the world, who always had a reason not to except esus, cause he is there without you asking now is ready to ask. god always has a surprise for me. praise god, and please pray for friday, the day the angels will be rejoicing again for another soul. praise god.

praise god

praise god, i thank everyone for their prayers for jordan, especially god for answering them, he is finally out of bed, and breathing much better. praise god..........i have to say some things that come my way when i know i am in gods will, still make me teeter a bit, but god always gives me his grace to hold on, thru a rema word, a person compassionate enough to care to pray, peace that passes all understanding...............i feel like the enemy is trying to topple me, to get me to back down, but i pray for the strength to stand, for i will reap in due season if i faint not. when i think of all the things we have been thru............. and all the things god has brought us thru, you wouldnt even believe some of the testimonies. i truly have been touched with the feeling of others infirmities, on so many levels. i feel like all we have been thru is to prepare me for the people god is sending us too. i can never say oh look at you, how did you get here? if not for gods grace we would be there too.... gods word says when you go thu the waters they will not sweep over you, when you go thru the fire you will not be burned, he has proven this to be true over and over again. sometimes i do have to admit, i dont wanna go thru........i am a living, breathing,walking testimony. if i ever give them all it will blow your mind. to god be all the glory...............

god is in control

i was thinking this morning about a very hard time in my life a few years back, god wanted me to help someone and in doing so i was put thru one of the worst times in my life. i remember at the end of this god giving me psalm 72, verses 19-24. also your righteousness god is very high, you who have done great things, who is like you? YOU, who have shown me great and severe troubles, shall revive me again, and bring me up again from the depths of the earth. you shall increase my greatness. and comfort me on every side.also with the lute i will praise you, and your faithfullness oh my god.to you i will sing with the harp, o holy one of israel, my lips shall greatly rejoice when i sing to you, and my soul which YOU have redeemed. my tongue shall also tell of your righteousness all day long. for they are confounded, for they are brought to shame. who seek my hurt. i knew then that this was over and it was, but what i learned from all this, was that i wanted things to be my way, when it came to my children, i wanted to go thru what i wanted to go thru, and that is not gods way. i learned a valuable lesson thru this trial, first of all, god himself allowed it, he himself will have mercy on whom HE chooses to have mercy on, and compassion on whom HE himself chooses to have compassion on, and i will not stand in his way. god is god and beside HIM there is no other. and i also learned i will perform all his pleasure, and thru all of that i can truly say, although i cried all thru it, like i havent cried in many times, it was good that i had been afflicted, and yet though he slay me yet will i trust him. to god be all the glory.

whirlwind

wow, god is so good. went to church to a whirlwind of unbelievable donations to the food pantry ministry. i said we will need another cabinet and another refrigerator here soon. praise god. three teams will be going out this week. praise god...................... byron came for the first time in a while, he looks so tired, my heart just goes out to this family, we love them. he said he couldnt believe all the buzz with the food pantry and how everyone was working together busy doing something, even getting a donation of furniture for the mom with the two children and the babysitter. praise god..............pastor graves message was on not taking everything the enemy throws our way, some things we just dont have to receive. we are more than conquerors thru christ who loves us. rema for me as i have been hit on everyside, please pray for jordan as his breathing was terrible again, now im going after this with gods word. no weapon formed against me shall prosper and as i have always said you form it against one of my children you formed it against me.,by the stripes of jesus jordan is healed. praise god..............all the people will look and acknowledge that my children are the posterity the lord has blessed. halleluhah, jesus.

ministry

i got a chance to talk to rose to find out what happened when her and amy went out on their first outreach. praise god. they ended up going out on friday night, and they had went to a young mom with one child. lisa and i had tried to see her to no avail a couple times so i knew this ground was for them. they met with her, blessed her , got to talk to her about her issues in her life and to pray for this young girl. this is a seed planted in her life and it will yield fruit for our lord. this week another team will be going out as well as lisa and i. i am praying for provision for four families,and am excited to see what will happen. all this week has been a trial, as soon as the girl was saved my hip went into excruciating pain everytime i lifted my leg, this is the leg that was hurt when i got hit by the car, jordan has had the worst attack of asthma that i remember in years, and my home has turned into battleground. oh my god.well i called on my brothers and sisters in christ for prayer, i know the enemy is trying to discourage me, and i was teetering there for a moment but am determined to get back out there, the battle is not mine it is the lords. i woke up on saturday started to move my leg and the pain was all gone, praise god. i found out later the women had gathered together and prayed for me. praise god, i spent last night at the hospital with jordan and he needed two treatments but he is so much better, praise god, and my home, trusting god.............praise god....... well excited about this week and how the lord will come thru........may he have his total will with this and me.......

jewel in his crown

today we went out on food pantry delivery, we had a family in mind but as usual ended up somewhere else, and as is the norm lately to a saved family in despair. we got to bless them and they needed it , and to pray for them. the saints are weary. please pray as rose and amy will be going out tonite, cant wait to hear their testimonies, praise god, may his total wiill be done. well anyways went home took a little nap as 4.30 wears on you. i woke up looking at these bags a friend of mine had given me weeks before with blankets ,sheets, curtains etc.. i hadnt done anything with them yet, as i didnt know who to give them to, i diidnt need them. i knew god wanted me to bring them to the babysitter anna and this family..i could hear the enemy in the background, shes going to think your a stalker as we have been there 4 times. i said god im going to go down there and lead this girl to you, i need your help, i cant do anything if you dont go with me. well went down talked to her and her boyfriend mike who has been there once or twice,the questions this boy had were amazing. i did the best i could, and tried to be honest with him. well anna accepeted christ as her saviour, and he let me pray for him, he really doesnt know what to think of us, but we have built a relationship. now the next time we go we will be inviting them to church as i explained to her you need to grow in your new relationship. do you know in all this time we have never met the mom. well to god be all the glory, another jewel in his crown for the reward of his suffering.

td jakes

i put td jakes on my blog so many times because i have learned more about gods word from his teachings than anyone.some say you can have a spiritual father, i would beieve he would be the closest to one i have had. he preaches gods word in such a way that it relates to my everyday life. praise god for raising him up for such a time as this. when i lead people to the lord the question sometimes comes up do you know where you would go when you die, are you absolutely sure? and then we tell them you can absolutely know. and some leave it there, but i always think,thats wonderful we will go to heaven when we die, and i dont want to take from the exrtreme importance of that, but i always gotta tell them, jesus also is for right now, an ever present help in times of trouble.life done hit some people hard and they need to know you can cast your cares on him cause he careth for you. bishop jakes teaches us how to live now, in preparation for where we are going, not only does god give us victory when we get to heaven he preparest a table now in the presence of our enemies, our situations. i learned how to praise god while im going thru...............to god be all the glory

Bishop TD Jakes-

Bishop T.D. Jakes - Stumbling into the Place

halleluhah

Bishop T.D. Jakes -

rema rema rema

Bishop T.D. Jakes - Favor Ain't fair

very relevant

Bishop TD. Jakes Sermon: satan the Lord rebuke thee

oh yeah

Bishop T.D. Jakes: You can recover... Praise Break

this is my favorite preacher, i have learned so much from his teaching

The Rapture of the Church - Perry Stone and Rod Parsley

i get a chance sometimes to listen to perry stone, i enjoy it.

ANNA

anna is the name of the quote babysitter, we found that out today. she is a beautiful young girl of approx. 17 would be my guess. please pray for anna's salvation as i am believing god for it and will NOT give up. it is not his will that any should perish. also please pray for a large donation i received from a member of the community today, i diidnt know what we would do with it, but felt if it is offered, god has a place for it, it is 5 cases of restaurant size cans of flour, rice, egg mix, pinto beans, vegetables etc.this could only be used for a very large family, shelter , soup kitchen or i just dont know. please any prayerful suggestions would be much appreciated. it is now in the trunk of my vehicle and cannot wait to unload and find a place at the church or preferably the destination to where it is going. to god be all th glory for all of this. god bless susan

the babysitter

i just remembered that i now know the name of the quote babysitter. it is anna and she is a beautiful young girl , approx 17 would be my guess. she has a delightful smile, beautiful skin color and pretty brown eyes., also i need prayer for a donation i recieved today from a member in the community. they stopped me to see if i could use it for the food pantry and i couldnt say no, as i believe anything we get god will show us a use for. it is five large boxes of restaurant size cans of rice, vegetables, flour, pinto beans and i am not sure what else. if anyone has any prayerful suggestions. i truly welcome the suggestions as this could only be used for a very large family, shelter, soup kitchen, or i dont know. but god must have a plan. it is in the back of my car at the moment and cant wait to either store it somewhere at church or give it away to meet a need. well to god be all the glory for all of this.susan

watchmen are in zion

i do believe god has his that are the watchmen in the body, they are to be led by the holy spirit in matters concerning spirits that sometimes enter in that are not of god. they have the discernment when something is just not right. its not the people, it is the spirit that has entered in. we must be careful not to rebuke the people but the spirit that is coming thru them. dont have any idea why that is relevant but thought of it so blogging. on a more pleasant note we have two more teams to be added to the food outreach ministry. one team will be going out in additon to us this week and hopefully the other next week. please pray as i know lisa and i are not to reach everyone, i am excited as each team steps up, praying for gods will totally with them, and the people they will minister to. the children;s church will now be involved in decorating the boxes we use to fill the food. this is really turning out to be a unity effort, and i praise god............i want his will completely in this. today lisa and i went out to just give snacks and gifts for the children with the babysitter, she was so glad to see us and i noticed that we are building relationships, and other young moms that i know by seeing here and there, came out to see us also and talk. it was a nice visit. we then intended to bless a young mom with a baby, but she wasnt home and the other team will take this on wednesday as lisa and i go somewhere else. we did end up meeting with a woman i have known for years, a backslidden christian who has been separated from her husband for awhile, and they have just reconciled. we stayed and ministered to her for quite awhile and she let us pray for them. i believe it definetely was god arranged. well please keep us in prayer as we are building relationships with the community in stafford. we do not want to go one step ahead of god or one step behind him. HIS WILL COMPLETELY>

revealtions 19 11-16

i heard this word and it really stood out to me, i thought wow. I SAW HEAVEN STANDING OPEN AND THERE BEFORE ME WAS A WHITE HORSE, WHOSE RIDER IS CALLED FAITHFUL AND TRUE, WITH JUSTICE HE JUDGES, AND MAKES WAR. HIS EYES ARE LIKE BLAZING FIRE, AND ON HIS HEAD ARE MANY CROWNS. HE HAS A NAME WRITTEN ON HIM THAT NO ONE KNOWS BUT HE HIMSELF. HE IS DRESSED IN A ROBE DIPPED IN BLOOD AND HIS NAME IS THE WORD OF GOD. THE ARMIES OF HEAVEN WERE FOLLOWING HIM, RIDING ON WHITE HORSES AND DRESSED IN FINE LINEN, WHITE AND CLEAN. OUT OF HIS MOUTH COMES A SHARP SWORD WITH WHICH TO STRIKE DOWN THE NATIONS. HE WILL RULE THEM WITH AN IRON. SCEPTOR.HE TREADS THE WINEPRESSES OF THE FURY OF THE WRATH OF GOD ALMIGHTY, ON HIS ROBE AND ON HIS THIGH HE HAS THE NAME WRITTEN; KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS. PRAISE GOD.

good day

went to the four town fair, my feet hurt so bad, standing in line for ride after ride as the kids had a great time. saw my step dad and i still gave him a hug, he looks so old now. he is in gods hands. church was different as pastor jeff had a special bible study at his church, the fill in pastor preached on leading those around us to the lord, we have to care about them cause once god comes back, thats it. chance gone. maybe gods weaning us from pastor graves. we will eventually have a permanent pastor and he is growing on us. i wish the best for him, he is a spirit led man. our unity in our body is strong and everyone is pulling together, a three fold cord cannot easily be broken. rose is starting a focus group for men and woman so we can get rid of some of that junk in the trunk as she put it. It is a weight class, so of course my name was down first on the list, i welcome the chance to do it as a group, last time we did it i lost 13 lbs. only kept off 8, but still progress although slow........................some women signed up that dont even need to lose just to do something together. praise god.........well work tommorow, food pantry. i noticed enough for a couple families, although still in prayer about who. have one on my heart and feeling led to go after salvations to a couple we have already been to. we;ll see how god leads.god bless

baptism in the holy spirit

well, i was sleeping, woke up with the tv on to a preacher speaking on baptism in the holy spirit, with the initial evidence of speaking in tongues...and these signs shall follow. it made me ponder how vital praying in the spirit really was.and how all the times god has really moved he has led me to a time of praying in the spirit. i was thinking of lisa who by the way, praise god is much better, we have been praying for months for her for baptism in the holy spirit and she keeps saying ''squuz am i ever going to get it. and i say of course you are.but this pastor tonite said you have to believe you received it. then i knew revelation hit me.and god now had my attention. i was reminded of when i recieved baptism of the holy spirit, although i do remember years before one time the holy spirit hitting me like fire and speaking in tongues and not understanding it at all. it just came on me and out it came and the girl that was with me was scared. anyways i had called the 700 club for prayer, back as a new christian i did that alot and the woman on the other line said have you received baptism in the holy spirit and i said no, and she said would you like to and i said yes, she led me in the prayer asking god to fill me and to receive this gift, and i remember her saying now open your mouth and roll your tongue over the roof of your mouth, and let it flow, i remember doing this and hearing something that sounded rather silly.she said ok now practice that as you pray, and i thought ok, lady. well later when i was in the shower i did remember what she said and started to believe i receive, and do as she said and all of a sudden it hit me like fire and i couldnt catch my breath it just started flowing and i was amazed. must of stayed in their half hour that day praying in the spirit. well anyways i knew god wanted me to blog, why i dont know but i did need to remember this for lisa, i thought of someone i know asking me what the advantage was to praying in the spirit , and i said i thought it was like fine tuning, like back in the day when we needed those fuuny looking antennaes and when you pulled out the ends the reception was so much clearer, i feel thats what speaking in tongues does with me, im more in tune to what god is saying, and the ability to hear him is clearer.my antenaes are up.. well maybe tahts for someone, i know its for lisa. going to bed as i get uo at 4,30. praise god

new day

work was good, im finally getting the hang of things and my boss really has seemed to take to me from the first day, must be a god thing,she is a great boss.good people skills.she keeps saying your the bomb' oh boy, i hope not. i was thinking about seeing the young mom from the bus stop the day after we were able to minister to her with food, i was listening to pastor joes series he had on his blog about servant evangelism. the man said people dont know what to think when you just do something kind and do not expect anything. it reminded me of that look she gave me the next day, it was like why would you do that? for someone you dont even know. that is only jesus's love flowing thru us. we are not even capable of it without him, apart from him we can do nothing, but thru him..................wooh.anyways i am making homemade pizza and thinking after a hundred times at least of doing this, cheese then pepperoni, pepperoni then cheese. went with cheese then pepperoni. right i dont know. i would say senior moment but im only 46 so i highly doubt it. who cares anyways, they are going to eat it as fast as i make it. please pray for lisa, she really needs it right now. cannot wait for the weekend as it is the annual four town fair and we love bringing the grandchildren and paul said yes we can go again. sometimes he is an ok husband. praise god.

GOOD MORNING

THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT. PRAISE GOD.................................

Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah

i like this one too

John Mayer | No Such Thing

iiiiiiiiiiiiiii love this song, won tickets over the summer but byron ended up going, he needed it more than me.surprised he liked him too

god is awesome and so are his people

the last two days have been awesome, last night we got to minister the love of jesus to the single mom with three children, later found out by accident one of her children is the granddaughter of one of our members in our church. halleluhah. anyways one member of our body bought a whole weeks groceries for this family, we prayed for her and she was so grateful, when i saw her this morning she said she couldnt believe how blessed she had been, i went back to the church after that to find three bags of food left there for us which put our donations to the other two families at record.there were books on the love of jesus also given and then i received more.when i went this morning there was clothes shoes, school supplies and an anonymous envelope addressed to me for a donation also, i started to cry thinking how faithful god is to this ministry. we loaded up, and went to visit a family we know to have them join us in praying over these and that was such a blessing to us. we first went out to give to the family with the kids with the clothes need and he was the only one home, he just couldnt believe this, and looked dumbfounded he didnt want us to come in he was embarrased.we didnt get to pray this time but told him we were extending the love of jesus thru our church, and he was thankful the second family we outreached to was a woman that desperately needed a visit, her husband was at work and she was there alone with their two young children.she said this donation would be used for a charity on saturday that she was a part of. we didnt care cause god knows. she lost her 17 year old daughter last year and her mom a couple weeks later, she was so glad to see us and proceeded to tell us about the things god has done in her life since the loss of her daughter and mom, and the ministries that have come thru this, i truly dont know who was blessed us or her. she said all the bitterness was gone, and how life is different her husband had a affair and god gave her the grace to forgive him and the woman. people who use to be her enemies are now her friends, it was a different visit to say the least. she truly knew we are sojourning here, i know that, but do i truly, know that, something to think about.and lisa was given a basketball hoop her son and her have been praying for for months now. what a god send....... to god be all the glory, he is in this and i am amazed at the awesome god we serve. oh and i got a call yesterday for a donation for school supplies and was able to go to here we grow and buy clothes for another family with children, still have enough left for another family for this week or to carry on into next week, however god leads. ma god have his total will thru us.

the need is there

wow what a morning, i have my cleaning job today, so had a chance to keep two of my grandsons overnite as i dont have to get up as early on tuesdays, i got to bring them down for school for a change. yesterday was a bad day for me, couldnt stop crying, just really reflecting on where i am in life at 46. i was watching td jakes new series on repositioning yourself at any point in life, just a few minor tweaks could make all the difference. i knew god was telling me i dont have to find value in my job, i can get it in the things that matter, god, my husband, children grandchildren, ministry.ive always put these things first, thats why i dont have the big career. i definetely need to make some changes, but i was thinking jeez is this food pantry really making a difference? but as i was at the bus stop, there was a single mom of three works a full time job and struggles with food, she was talking to alicia my daughter about going to a church in town and how she would listen if she could just really get someone to talk to her, that really believed in jesus , so of course alicia says my mom really believes in jesus, and their church does a food outreach, she will help you.so she came up to me , very reluctantly and asked if once in awhile we would remember her children in this outreach as it is hard to stretch her paycheck, she got tears in her eyes and i told her we will definetely remember her this week as tommorow we go out because we missed yesterday as my day was so bad. and i have tommorow off, perfect. both of them then expressed a need in the people across the street with three children, they said how these children went to school with no new clothes holes in their shoes and worn clothing, oh my god, i couldve cried right there i felt such a rush of the holy spirit knowing this is why we have this ministry. god wants us to help these people. well anyways i sent out a emergency email to the people in our church to pray and ask god if there is anything they can do, together we can do mighty things thru god. so i asked for, meeting needs for these childrens clothes and shoes as payless is cheap and kmart has a great sale. we have enough food for two families and promised one already then the single mom, and now i need prayer to also be a blessing for this third family, i will do all i can. please pray god meets this need i know he will.

SUNDAY"S SERMON

went to church today, pastor graves sermon was on salvation, and how true repentance had to come with that.he said that you should see a true change in someone after true salvation. it was a good message and really gave me something to pray about before i lead someone to the lord. he also, said we need to truly be thankful; for our salvation and the changes god has made in us. he also invited us to go to his church tonite for a worship service, i was thinking about it because i love worship and wanted to support him as he has supported us. i wasnt sure until the new single mom that has been coming with her son came right up to ME and asked if i could go with her, what could i say, then, so i WILL be going tonight with her. we have been praying for her salvation. her son was one of our vbs children. praise god.......had food waiting for us, for food pantry tommorow and a nice gift certificate. god is so faithful to this ministry. please pray for us, we will be going out to a newly saved couple struggling and want to minister with the love of jesus and not entirely sure of the other family but have an idea.. please pray for me on this new job, i am already looking to move on.........know i wont be here forever but god has a plan here for someone and i gotta stick it out until then. ugh ugh ugh.and i would never leave until i found something else, i have learned to hang in there, no matter how tough it gets, god WILL bring me thru. praise god. i just wonder if ill ever find a job i truly find meaning in. i hope so.............

At Last

tribute to my grandmom, it was her favorite, and its always been one of mine

vision for the food ministry

rose called me last night, she has been praying on seekng god on new ministries in the church. she said god woke her up 3..00 in the morning night before last and gave her a vision of the food pantry, she believes in the future it will be big, and a little different. she said more like what it started out to be years before when god gave it first to me. getting to know the community thru this ministry and word of mouth will spread it. bruce sent her a book and it had wonderful ideas of how to minister with food. i am excited and know we are in gods will, well anyways she believes god is saying, dont start anything new, back up this ministry. praise god, to him be all the glory and i pray we glorify god thru this.

ministering with food

getting up at 4.30 every morning is really taking a toll on me. ugh............. meeting alot of really good people,though, and today i got to pray over the girl i told you about with all the jobs and school, and children. she was so glad to see me and apreciative that i prayed for her . she is hurting. she cannot keep up at this pace. god will intervene. we went out today for food ministry, alot of food was there, between buying it from the donations and what was left there from the wonderful people at church. god please bless them all, whatever you do for the least of these my brethen you have done for me. we ministered food to , two christian families and felt god was saying to encourage the saints, they are weary.one girl i have known for years told her children, see god is good and the lord works in mysterious ways. i felt such a sweep of the holy spirit as she said that..we went back to the babysitter and prayed over her and i got to share some of my tetimony with her and there was three teenage boys there, listening attentively, not knowing what to think, the kids there were so glad to see the food, they immediately starting putting it away and we notiiced their refrigerator was bare. the children seemed grown beyond their years . i dont like to see children not able to be children, you only get one shot at being a kid and your whole life to be responsible adults. oh the state of peoples lives. THEY NEED JESUS. i have such a burden for a child named noah, i know his mom sheila, she lost all her children to foster care because of drug abuse from the rotten childhood she had and no one to help her to deal with the things she went thru. what a viscious cycle. this is her youngest his name was nathan but the foster care family adopted him and changed his name to noah, at six years old. poor child, now they are divorcing, and he is now living with the foster dad. now he is acting out and the counselors are labeling him psycotic, among other things and say next step is juvenile detention. i could throw up thinking about it. staying with this man is not good, i know it deep down in my heart, i want to shake that counselor and tell them to wake up and help this child. six years old, he was in our vbs and he is a wonderful child, life has just dealt him an awful hand and i am going to bombard heaven everyday for this child. please pray for him,they couldve labeled me as a child the way they are doing to him, i set fires i stole things until i told, and my mom listened. all that then stopped. thank god for his grace on my life and i pray it is extended also to him. please please pray for this young boy , the devil is a liar, and i will not ever receive those words for this child. god bless susan

back from camping

had a wonderful time camping, went to a new place and it was really nice. most of the family came to visit and justice and destiny made alot of friends, caleb had fun too, made it to church on sunday, although i was tired and the enemy was trying to discourage me in different areas, pastor graves preached on the enemy coming against you every way when your in the fight if he's not bothering you, you are no threat. and god was in control of all of it.he said the enemy wouldnt be able to say jesus i know paul i know but who are you, when we are walking close to god, and also isaiah 54. rema or what? anyways i got to share a little about the food pantry, and two people gave cash donations praise god, this is good ground. please pray we will be lead to meet specific needs for those we minister to this week. we will be going out wednesday only for this week . god bless

prayer request

please keep our friday night prayer group in prayer as they will be meeting and going out tonite to lift up our brother and sister in christ. april and byron aulick. they will be visiting them in their home. praise god. pastor graves said we are prayed up now go, and rose as our humble leader has felt god leading her in this direction. she truly leads by example, and i love her,i will not be going as we are on our last camping trip this weekend, but i am praying and will be in church on sunday with some newly saved and my daughters who have been coming faithfully. praise god for this. on my way to work, please pray for strength. god bless

jer 51

its funny when i think people read my blog, cause really it has now turned into my personal journal, i remember awhile back i thought god spoke to me about writing, a book, i thought, but you never know how god works. yesterday it was like he was reminding me of that but in a different arena than a book. something to do with birthing another sort of ministry, i will wait till that unfolds. anyways, when i was camping god had me in jer 51, i was up late and i was praying for the kids and reminding god of all his promises to me concerning them, after all he watches over his word to perform it. he brought me to this book in jer 51, and i remember asking for revelation and what hit me was the year of completion and i believe he was saying that all those things were now being brought down and laid waste. he was now going to work on our behalf and wipe out our enemies., and the part of this scripture i marked because it hit me so relevantly was jer 51,20-24 it says this'''YOU ARE MY WAR CLUB, MY WEAPON FOR BATTLE, WITH YOU I SHATTER NATIONS, WITH YOU I DESTROY KINGDOMS, WITH YOU I SHATTER HORSE AND RIDER, WITH YOU I SHATTER CHARIOT AND DRIVER, WITH YOU I SHATTER MAN AND WOMAN, WITH YOU I SHATTER OLD MAN AND YOUTH,WITH YOU I SHATTER YOUNG MAN AND MAIDEN,WITH YOU I SHATTER SHEPARD AND FLOCK, WITH YOU I SHATTER FARMER AND OXEN, WITH YOU I SHATTER GOVERNORS AND OFFICIALS,BEFORE YOUR EYES I WILL REPAY BABYLON, AND ALL WHO LIVE IN BABYLON, FOR ALL THE WRONG THEY HAVE DONE IN ZION, DECLARES THE LORD. just now i thought of what someone said over me in friday night prayer group after prayer.about authority, i asked god for confirmation to that. im not sure but praise god. behold the lamb of god who takes way the sins of the world.

MADE IT

i made it thru my first day of work, i came home and had to lay on the couch. must have made 150 cups coffee. my feet hurt so bad ,but i did eventually get up and motivate.actually the job stinks but the people were very interesting. i felt led to keep in prayer, and hope any of you do too, a young jamaican mother of four just got out of the service, going to school, to be an fbi agent, and working 3 parttime jobs. two of her children had to stay in another state with family till she gets on her feet. i cant imagine leaving my kids anywhere.oh how i hate the rat race of life without trusting jesus. i told her i will be praying for you and she seemed very grateful, she looked so tired. made me very thankful i dont have to do that. she said only one more year, i dont see how she will keep up at that pace and how much time is there for those children who cant be that old as i would guess her to be 27. every job i ever go to, god has someone there he wants to help. praise god. well off to finish my chores around here.

isaiah 58

while i was at work today i was thinking and i know god was reminding me of why we started the food pantry ministry. it was because god kept speaking to me thru isaiah 58 about the true fast, to feed the hungry clothe the naked set the prisoner free, etc. that was the whole basis to the ministry and yes we were believing for salvations. god reminded me that i can go out and minister jesus love in a tangible way, by meeting there needs, and praying for them but the salvation part is the holy spirits job, i am just a vessel, i cant say when or where or who, that only god knows and if he reveals it to me then i act on it. i had felt bad more for the people that gave, and thinking i had a responsibility to do something only god could do, and these people did not make me feel this way,i did that myself. gods hand of love was extended, four families were blessed children may have gotten a decent meal that they might not of had if it werent for this and maybe the parents got a couple nights of less worry. and we made sure we told them this is the love of jesus extended to them, they may have went to bed thanking god, thinking on him for the first time in a long time and feeling like someone cares and there may be hope.so i knew god was saying we did our part now wait for him to do his and dont ever forget we cant do his part and he doesnt expect us to. thank you jesus

blogging away

you can tell i have alot of time on my hands but not for long as of today i will be working five days a week. ugh.................but praise god its not full time, my husband is happy, i can now pay my bills, and have a little extra to be a blessing to others.for the last few days i have been pondering the two words that came to me in friday night prayer group. the first was ''jesus i know, paul i know, but who are you? in acts the nineteenth chapter, and the other was john 15 15 and 16 i no longer call you servants for a servant does not know what his master is doing, instead i have called you friends, for everything i have learned from my father i have made known to you. you did not choose me but i have chose you, and appointed you to go and bear fruit , and your fruit shall remain.these two important scriptures say to me, that our relationship with jesus and abiding in the vine are vital to our walk with our saviour. when you have a close relationship with jesus and obey him, most important, it will yield a life that produces victory in the things of god, and it also says the enemy knows the difference. you just cant say jesus jesus and operate in the things of god unless you have walked with him and learned his way of doing things. we all fall short but as we abide he perfects those things which concern us, and he does give us all authority over the enemy. father i pray in the name of jesus that the enemy would never be able to say to us jesus i know, paul i know but who are you.i pray we will walk such a close walk with you that the enemy will tremble knowing that you have given us authority in the name of jesus. i pray that as we abide in you and obey as you lead you will teach us who we truly are in christ. i thank you for these things in the name that is above all names. jesus jesus jesus to him be all the glory

dont try to figure god out

sometimes when god tells me something and sometimes he has to say things a hundred times because i got to know that i know that he said it, its that authority thing with me. the hardest teaching i ever heard was when pastor joe taught the john bevere teaching on submitting to authority, oh how i hated that teaching. i think when you are abused as a child by someone in authority over you, you grow up with a self defense mechanism. no one could ever say to me susan this table is black when i know darn well it is brown. but i will say i learned alot thru that teaching and the most important thing that was when we submit to the authority god has placed in our lives we are submitting to god. because of my backgroungd god has been extremely patient with me, teaching me i could trust him and his way of doing things, so now i dont have a problem with submitting because i know i am submitting to god, doesnt mean i have to alwaysi agree but i do have to tread carefully with my disagreeing. i just say god did you see that? and of course he did, and i would never never confront it unless i truly heard god. be very careful when you stand up to one of gods chosen. well anyways what im trying to say is i wont always be able to have all the answers to why god says to do certain things i cant understand. he is god and without faith it is impossible to please him. but i do know i have to obey. obedience is better than sacrifice. sometimes sacrifice is easier.

collosians 2 6and 7

as you have therefore received christ jesus the lord, so walk in him, rooted and built up in him and established in the faith, as you have been taught, abounding in it with thanksgiving. beware lest anyone cheat you through philosophy and vain deceit, according to the tradition of men, according to the basic principles of the world, and not according to christ.for in him dwells all the fullness of the godhead bodily, and you are complete in him, who is the head of all principality and power.vv8-10

Worship Series Pt 5

this is awesome reminds me of the way worship should be

rance allen donnie mcclurkin marvin winans marvin sapp karen

CWF in Knoxville, TN

aaaaaaaamen

Jentzen Franklin at CBC

unhealthy comparisons

i get amazed sometimes when others compare themselves to other people. god says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. we are made in the image of god. i truly never understood this, i remember one day in church and commenting on one of the other ladies figures, to the lady of course,, i couldnt deny she has the best figure in there, you go girl, and one of the other ladies saying, are you jealous and i thought no, and the reason why is cause having a great figure takes some work and i wasnt willing to pay that price so why would i be jealous, its my own fault. i would say i fall in the other end of that spectrum of not thinking much of myself which must sometimes make god mad. its not that i dont thank god for the way he made me because i do i just know i couldve worked it alot better. but this keeps me very humble in definetely knowing ''apart from him i can do nothing' but i also believe IN HIM watch out.at least this way all glory goes to god, because susan just cant cut it on her own. and in the scheme of things thats ok with me. i need to toughen up though and god has allowed me to walk thru things that might have wiped me out years ago, but i still do get taken back when i get the discernment someone doesnt truly like me. i remember a few years back a man of god said some really harsh things to me and i just agonized over that i remember saying god they dont like me, and i remember hearing clearly in my spirit, susan, they didnt like me either. i guess i cant expect to not go thru some of the things my saviour had to face. and of course the enemy isnt pleased with me sometimes and he will use people you care about to try and hurt you. i still get taken back for a few moments, but then i remember the battle is not mine it is the lords and i totally trust him. all of us have a calling and we dont even have the choice of what it is and sometimes the calling comes with alot of pain, the annointing definetely costs you something, sometimes it cost you everything. we cant say to the potter what have you made? i tried it doesnt work. it seems like everytime i say i wouldnt want to be used in that way, i hear and thats why you will to god be all the glory.