end of 2008

what a year..................................i have learned so much, been thru so much.....god is still good. i am looking forward to 2009. well gotta clean as i have a few couples from church coming to ring in the new year with us.

cathy

cathy is back in the hospital, i have begun to lose count at the times they have had her in their in the last few months. she has been so sick, i hardley talk to her anymore. please pray for cathy. her mom called me to let me know on monday she went back to st francis and i knew she was worried. please pray for her too. thanks

change

wow what a year, been a hard one but lots of good fruit has produced. jordan is doing wonderful, god has brought him to new levels with him, i dont get to see him alot but i talk to him every day. this structure is good for him. he said mom, i have grown so much and learned a whole new way of living. totally drug and alcohol free for four months now. praise god. he is working and attending church on a regular basis, exercising has become a good replacement for him. he rides his bike miles a day. he looks wonderful. course im his mom and i would think he is the handsomest. but that will always be my opinion cause he is. our church put a bid on the house across the street from the church for pastor kris and his family, he will give up his salary for this and has already found a great job. things are going smooth. i feel a little bad for him coming into a body who has had no pastor for a year and a half and has run smooth and gained independence. but god is with us all. i like this family. i feel like we will never lie down and take things just cause, but humility and gods leading has to be first and foremost. well praise god for it all. camping two more weekends and while paul and the kids are still thrilled, i am cold and tired. god give me the strength, i am doing this for them. so what else is new? praise god anyways..............

To Make You Feel My Love

i always loved this song

Mary Mary- Shackles

oh yeah this is my kind of worship

new beginings

pastor and his family are all here now and the transition as our new leader has been smooth. they do need there own house so we still need to keep praying. the first change he made was that 10 percent of our entire budget will now go to missions. praise. he is big on giving as god says and i am thrilled about that as i know it trickles down from the head. cant wait to see what god has up ahead for us. they are such a loving family and the four childen are so huggy and lovy, i can see how good they have raised them love wins as he always says. well praise god.

I Have Been Blessed Lyrics by Martina McBride

school

the grandchildren all went back to school, caleb couldnt go as in ellington we have no pre-k, he will go right in to kindergarten next year. journey is in first and christian 3rd and destiny 5th and justice my first entered into 6th grade at the middle school. alicia wanted to walk him to the bus and he said he is in middle school now, what will the high schoolers think? where has the time gone. i am glad i am a young grandmon, cause im already tired. christian had his 8th birthday here last sunday and this yard was packed with kids and adults. he got so much stuff, i have never seen any of the kids get as much as he got at one time. some of the adults even jumped in the pool after the kids bombed them with water balloons. it was a fun fun day. well one more day of work and off we go camping as we havent done anything this summer and the kids have reminded us, so hope the nights arent to cold. please pray for the owner of the campground we go to, is name is brian he is about 35 and his son who is always there with him just died of an overdose. 15 years old. my heart hurts for this family. this was there only child and i didnt even know so i could pray. after all without gods grace where would i be? god is a good god and i just ask for your prayers for this family. god bless

sundays service

pastor kris preached his second service, it continued on ''love wins'' he has been staying with the mesereaus and now they have invited his wife and four children to come stay with them also. praise god he will have his family here with him. what touched me was when one of our moms stood up to give a testimony about how god had provided the money for school clothes, she was so thankful and all she owed was 100 and she could handle that. well pastor kris says i will give you 50 of that will any one match me? that started a mega blessing from many that rolled into this young moms hands. she couldnt stop crying and i had to hold back the tears. it trickles down from the head and i have never seen this happen before, i have always believed if we all helped each other in times of need there would never be a need not met in our body. i stand in awe of gods faithfullness. to god be all the glory...............i have felt tired lately, going out here and there for the food pantry and lisa goes out to, but we havent had any time to go together as we are both working now on different schedules. i feel like it is settling in to natural now, it cannot always be the mountain top. god is working on me in thta area. work is good i have met some really interesting teenagers. one of the instructors that has been there a long time says i am buiding quite a reputaion and the kids love to have me as there instrutor. well thats a god thing, please keep me in prayer as in the fall i will be doing advanced training to also be a classroom instuctor. this is like twice the work and you know how hard i had to work for this. god help me, please... i like this age group. just praying to keep level headed leading 40 at a time in a classroom setting and keeping them focused on what i will be teaching. ugh. i want to do this so i will do the best i can. praise god for the opportunity.

pastor kris young

sunday was our first official service with our new pastor, i have to say it went well. he preached on love and how it isnt a choice it is a command/ a week before one of our church members gave a word from a vision god gave her and after she said come to the alter and ask god which wall you have that needs to come down. i got up there and i said god whats my wall concerning our new pastor? that was the question and i immediately knew he asked me it back. of course i knew the answer. i didnt trust, and i didnt want to have to put my guard up so i immediately surrendered and told god i would trust him and give pastor kris a chance, and i did. i always feel like you cant be who you are , when the pastor comes. in the past i felt a lot of critiism for being me, although i knew my heart towards god was as good as i could get, that was all god wanted, i dint want to see us all come this far inour wak to take steps backwards. and he said i am here to guide you into the things god has for you. he said he isnt to be puffed up we are not to be puffed up but jesus is to be lifted high. so far so good..................i learned a long time ago and have proven it with being in the same church i dont come for the people or the pastor i come for jesus. that has to be the only reason, and i will say i have learned vital things form every pastor, i had alot to learn. so i would have to thank every one of them. god knew what he was doing. as he always does. well i look forward to the coming time in our body with anticipation and excitement. praise god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Martina McBride - A Broken Wing

i love martina and i love this song. feel like this represents me....

mathew 10-32-33

thousand dollar seed

i woke up at 2.30 this morning, i just couldnt sllep and put on the tv and mike murdock was on so i started watching him and god reminded me of the last time i watched him. it was approx 5 years ago and he said to sow a 1000 seed and if you didnt have it sow it in faith believing god would give it to you. i believe at that time i had about 20 cents to my name. gods word did say he gave seed to the sower. well i called in cause i just felt god was telling me too. well at the time laura had been in a small car accident a few months earlier, she wasnt hurt at all, praise god but she had a tiny scar on her forehead and the ins company contacted me. i was believing god for laura to get enough to insure and register this old car,. she had.. A couple days later the insurance company called me and said we would like to give laura 17,000, and pay off the medical bills. i was estatic. and laura gave me 2000 of it. there was my seed and 1000 more for me. laura ended up given my mom that car she had and she bought a classic twin turbo dodge stealth, and payed the registration and insurance. we were in negotiations for the second home i was believing god for. so me not being totally obedient sowed 500 and kept 500 for closing costs, well i was so convicted a couple days later i sent the other 500. the deal fell thru and we didnt get thta house but one year exactly we bought our second home and still own both to this day. praise god, i believe i delayed so god delayed but he was still faithful. and we bought both homes for way below market value. god is a big god. and dont want to ever delay in doing what i promised i would again. praise god.

Jaci Velasquez - On My Knees

wow

god is moving. he sent his word and it healed me. i am expecting such a glorious miracle for my teeth tommorrow and i cannot wait to give the testimony. praise you jesus.................................god can do anything but fail...........

god is moving....................

i talked to jordan today and he said he went to a different church last night, a large van picked them up. he said it was a wonderful service and some lady just came up to him laid her hands on him and started praying. he said he feels so different. and he got to talk to the pastor for a long time. he said the worship just really hit him.he said mom i was singing the whole time. if you know jordan, oh my god...........praise you jesus. he asked for a bible before he left and read all of mark. he said i actually understood it for the first time. he wants me to come and go to church with him, YES>>>>>>>>>>> god is amazing. and i just know that i know that i know that i will be giving some awesome testimonies about my brother dennis too. god is an awesome god.

his word

i felt led to say thru this trial and most every trial i hold god to his word. i remind him of his mercies that are new every morning and endureth forever. i tell him i will be like the widow at the judges door and i will cry out until he answers me. i call him to remebrance of his word regarding my children, regarding me. i wait with anticipation until he gives me the rhema word and then i hold him to it. the kingdom of god suffereth violence and the violent take by force. there is not one word that you hear and believe that you will not be tried on. do you really believe it? god watches over his word to perform it. he disperses his angels to fight on our behalf and i still believe i witnessed some of that the other day. it was like the accuser standing there accusing and jesus coming back with why we are not to be accused. the word that staes no weapon formed against you shall prosper and every tongue that rises against you in judgement we shall condemn, cause this is th eheritage of the servants of the lord, is so true. jesu died for it all. the weapons will form but they are to go nowhere but to bring us where god intends for us to be. i was listening to td jakes preach on when interuptions become opportunities. that is exactly what god does. he take sthat mess that sometimes you yourself got into it, but when you lean on him and cry out to him he brings you in to a new place and a new level in him. i have met people i never would have met, i have gotten to pray for people and lead them to my saviour that i know without going thru these things would not have happened and they have seen my gods mighty hand and they cant even believe it. every time. god is so faithful, and i just stand humbly before him with such a gratefullness nad love. i am stronger in him then i have ever been. when i am weak he is strong. strong in me. i am so blessed to be saved and have a saviour that truly nailed every single thing to that cross, that day he shed his blood for me. that blood takes our place in everything. it is finished. and i cant praise him enough.

Bishop T.D. Jakes - The Blood Speaks

amazed

i was praying this morning and just reflecting on the awesome god that we serve and the things he has done in my life. i sit here with such anticipation of the things he is going to do. the trials lately have been bigger but i have to say with all honesty, the miracles have been bigger. this year has been a year of seeing gods mighty hand. starting with the provision for the food pantry, i think of how he just provides hundreds and hundreds of dollars thru so many people, i know i am seeing this hand of provision for something i will need to believe him for in the future regarding where he is bringing me. i will need to remember his hand of provision to believe him for way bigger. he has shown me how he will use people you dont even know to fight on your behalf. and when you see it all unfold he was working all this out when the trial started but i didnt know, but wow god is an awesome god. i believe god has revealed the target family this year for vbs. every year god has revealed a family that we are to pray for, bless, and encourage in the lord. i have seen these families come out of horrific things and god set them in a broad place. vbs is unfolding in a beautiful way and yesyerday my day just started to go all chaotic before vbs, and alot got attacked and didnt come. i said i am going no matter what. i lost my checkbook to start out with, still havent found it and i ahve to say for about an hour i totally lost my peace. i called a couple of my sisters in christ and finally said no, all the things god has done and im going to lose my peace over a checkbook, i do not think so. i was so blessed to be there last night. god is bringing in new people. extensions of some of the families that are there. laura has even helped out as a leader and has been blessed by this ministry. jordan joined a prayer group and has bible study at his classes each and every night. in the last days he will pour out his spirit and our sons and daughters shall prophecy. we are at that door. hallleluhah..i am so filled with anticipation. he is coming back for a glorious church without spot or wrinkle. we are in preparation for this. i cannot praise him enough. this huge mighty miracle that he has performed in our life is nothing compared to what i a going to soon see him do. praise god....................

Set Me Free-Casting Crowns

wow

CASTING CROWNS 'LOVE THEM LIKE JESUS'

a young girl sent this for jordan on alicia's my space.

salvation

today before i went to work i called my friend sheila who just recently accepted christ as her saviour. her son is my nephew , he is the one who answered the phone so of course i had to magnify the name of jesus and give my testimony of how big a god i serve is, he knows the situation, so he knows definetely wow.......................i talk to him about the lord every chance i get, and have for many years now. so i asked him again if i could pray for him and as always he said yes, and then i just felt led to ask him if he would like to have jesus be lord of his life. and this time he said yes. wow. many years of praying there. praise god........god is such a faithful god..................all praise to him...........

Amy Grant - El Shaddai (Live)

i heard this , this morning and it brought me to just such an appreciation of our mighty god.

sunday

on sunday at service rose gave the message, she is in preparation. she spoke on how god tries our hearts. it was good. as the service was ending someone yelled out karen is having a seizure. i have never seen this kind of thing before but we all started praying and speaking to this situation and taking authority over it and she came out of it. praise god, there was such a strong presense of god i know she is healed. when i was in court the day after another lady went into a seizure and for a minute i thought god i am in court the place is full. but i went up because i thought she needs jesus and laid hands on her and started praying quietly in the spirit and she came out of it also, praise god, i know this was a foredhadow of what god is going to do for people starting now. i feel such anticipation in my spirit. god is moving in miraculous ways. praise jesus

god is awesome

i got my prayers answered today in such a big way, god never ceases to amaze me. he can have people that you dont even know step up to the plate for you. sometimes you have to wonder if any of them are guardian angels.i stand totally in awe of god. there were people praying on alicais my space adn giving testimonies that we dont even know. god is an awesome god and he can do anything, praise you jesus................................

vbs

we had our second session of vbs last nite and it was great. the speaker was an emt friend of mine who is also a firefighter so she brought in all her gear and her cpr dummy and the kids were mesmerized.they all participated. it was a great night. first half hour she got there sammy who is renee , eunices great grandson, came down the stairs bllod gushing out of his nose, i said cathy you are already being utilized. thank god he was ok. pastor kris sent us all an email and said they will be here first week of august. praise god..................exciting things up ahead.

Juanita Bynum - Draw Me

yes

sunday

yesterday we went to church and i look out the door and there is pastor jeff to fill in. i was so happy to see him i ran out and held the door and hugged him. praise god.............he preached on gods faithfullness to our body. and these signs shall follow those that believe. emphasis on believe. i thought back on everytime god has moved i believed he would. he said these signs should be a everday occuraence. the same spirit that raised christ from the dead was inside of us. i already know this but do i truly believe it. i remember the first time i read that i was blown away by it. i still shake my head that god can use us this way. apart from him we can do nothing but thru him. whoa..................god finally gave me my word, i was elated cause once you get the word for your situation then you have something to sink your teeth in. praise jesus. we spent the day cookong out in the yard with my sister and her boyfriend scott, laura and caleb me and paul justice and christian tamara and allan ryan and rose and ron and my mom., who just loves rose lisa and michael were here too.and cathy. . rose played with my sister and mom batmitton, it was funny. the kids kept splashing ron so he jumped in the pool and that was funny. we had a great day of good food and fellowship.praise god

vbs

vbs has started and the first night was a success. we have to tweak a few things and we are good to go. i like the fact of once a week for one month, it gives us time to regenerate. i feel god has already revealed the target family this year not that their couldnt be more than one. praise god..........we are without a pastor for a little while again but we are ok........gods timing is always perfect and i ahve learned to just go with it...........it gives us open floor for awhile. we have learned so much in the last year about the holy spirit. i am amazed at gods afithfullness to our body. the food pantry is well and waiting for god to reveal next step. today is our july 4th cookout so i gotta go prepare before church.................

kirk franklin

a mothers love

i was sitting here tonite thinking........and when i write i dont know if others are reading and honestly i dont care. it has been like my personal journal. i remember when my children were little, honestly i never once in all the years of them growing up thought the day would come. how very naive of me. i feel very differently now as i watch my grandchildren. god gives us our children to borrow, they are really his children and we are to raise them in love and to know that god loves them. i feel my son has gone from a child to now a man. i see all he has gone thru and he is now a man. and yet i still love him and his sisters as if they were those little children i once had.appreciate your children, love them with every bit of the heart god gave you. yes discipline them when needed but always love them. god said we will know his disciples by the love they have for one another. you will not get back not one precious moment not one precious day, so please just love them, cause i sure do love mine.................and i praise god for all he has given me.

my job

i havent really wrote to much about my job lately, but this has been good. i feel totally at ease and in my element to be a driving instructor. it is definetely a god thing........ i have met so many teenagers, and its funny i have a good repoire with the girls but there is something about the boys that amazes me. they just open up to me and talk the whole two hours. i have had quite a few get in the car look at me for quite a few seconds to the point of uncomfortableness and then smile. what do they see? i can only imagine...........my boss is so good to us she gives us gas cards, gift cards for dinner and for shopping. i had asked god to work for someone who would give me favor, someone who shows there appreciation to you if you are dedicated and even renee my cleaning boss has done extra things for me lately/ god will cause even the rebellious to give us gifts. every time he has brought me to this verse i know something good is coming from someone i least expect it from. and everytime it has.............i think of how excited i was at the beginning of 08 knowing this was a special year and then all hell broke loose. isnt that the way? god gives us the prophetic word and the enemy launches attack to get us to doubt the word. he is such a liar.................no devil in hell can take what god has for us...........and dont ever think they can. praise god and to him be all the glory.....................

Chris Tomlin How Great is Our God Worship Video with Lyrics

you better believe it..................

Clarence E. Mcclendon Ministries

champions

justices baseball team went all the way to the championships and tonite won first place. he has played for 5 years now and never even came close. i prayed they would win as all the other negative i would be thrilled to see him bring home his very first baseball trophy and first place champions. i am so happy for him and his team. the game was supposed to be last nite and pastor kris and his son were going to be there to cheer us on but it got rained out and they headed home today. but lois and jenna and family came to cheer us on. that was so nice of all of them................ the game was so close and at the end not even realizing it i yelled out so loud thank you jesus. i dont normally do that but i knew god had answered my prayer as he will be faithful to all my prayers in his time................lois and jenna couldnt even believe i did that with all those people. but really thank you jesus. some of the people have had so many questions for me about god this season cause they hear us talking and tonite a few said i am one of the swetest ladies they know. i heard them all talking about me, and i couldnt believe they all liked me like that. you never know how god is using situations to touch people. well praise god the mets are this years first place champions...justice played third base and pitcher.

sundays service

sunday was a great service..............pastor kris was there with his son austin who is 13 and looks just like his mom jada. they are here looking for an apartment until they can find a house. we took up a collection the former sunday to help them and on sunday the board put 2000.00 into their hands, god is a good god. pastor donna preached her last sermon to us as next week will be there last sunday with us. she prayed and asked god for the message and man god showed up. she said we need to hold onto the dreams god gave us. how we have let the enemy beat us down and think god wouldnt bring them to pass. she told us how they found her husbands sister years ago dead on the street and how their own daughter died of a drug overdose. oh my god, if you saw these two people and the love they feel for people and jesus you would never think they would have walked thru all that. i thought jeez, i had to hang on. and then god reminded me of my calling and to confirm it he gave me one word for one person and it was enough for me to have hope again. she came to lay hands on me and all i remmeber is hearing fresh issues of living water and down i went and poor byron he tried to catch me, but sadly i got some weight on that little boy. somehow thru gods grace i landed fine and travailed in prayer. i felt so new afetr that. i thought jeez god will i ever come to apoint where i am not so needy so i cam help someone else. everyone thet was up there was touched that day. god is doing a new thing. can you not perceive it? ig got to pray for a woman tonite i ahve known for years, bound by drugs for years now. lost everything. she prayed to accept christ into her life and i prayed against the enemys attacks in her life. he has no true hold now. praise god. this is a way new time. how close are we really to our lords return? i have thought more about that lately then ever. god reminded me of how i always asked him not to let my children be left behind. did i believe he would answer. what would we go thru to get that answer. would it be worth theior souls? yes, and i say that thru tears. but honestly yes....................to god be all the glory in everything...........

new thing

i feel like the last couple days god is speaking to me about using my situation as the start of breakthru for alot of people. when i think back i feel like god uses me alot to do new things in our body. i say this with all humility cause i have said plenty of times cant you use someone else? sorry god.............i feel like he wants me to NOW tell it all and watch this cause others to open up about things they have not told and then deliverance is going to come to alot of people. i havent come to terms with this yet and i always need ten times the confirmation. i dont want to do it in my flesh but i will perform all his pleasure. after all he knows what is best. yesterday, i think my driving car was in the shop so my boss called and said miss sue today is your day off with full pay, enjoy it and do something for you. and then i go grocery shopping and right on the ground with noone around is some money crumpled up. so i said god i have been wanting to get a pedicure, never had one in my whole life. so i head to the place where rose suggested i go but i see this other place and the word in the window says pedicure and it stands out to me. so i go make an appt for an hour later. i had just prayed the night before god use me to help someone else in this situation. i feel im ready now. by the way the woman spent two hours on my feet. that was the best.....and i will do it again after i get a facial and a massage.......praise god..........anyways she ia talking and then she starts to share about her life. her and her husband had been divorced for 10 years, she still loved him. neither had ever married again but the last year they started seeing each other again.their daughter and what they were going thru with her had brought them back together.-she was in agony at the path her daughter had now taken. she said her name and i said to myself oh god what are you doing here? then she showed me a picture, i knew this girl, beautiful young girl, i had prayed for her she had the same issue i was now going thru. and to top it off they were cousins to one of our church memebrs. not a coincidence. so i told her my story and shared that her daughter was a start to what had happened to my son. oh my god..............so i asked her could we pray for both of them and she took my hands and we stood there and prayed. i thought as i was leaving that that was a divine encounter and i got a little scared to think where are you going to be sending me.? then i thought well if god was going to go with me what do i care? i still shake my head to think of what god is going to do. deliverance is coming to those that have been bound for years, salvation is coming. we are going into enemy territory and bringing out the spoils. some trials if god showed me ahead of time i would have run...................i remember years ago when that verse stood out to me if this has wearied you then how will you do in the floodplains of jordan and i thought what does that mean? i knew it meant something.he was saying this is nothing. oh boy help me lord.............................i have to hand in do as god leads whether it hurts or not and watch his mighty hand....and its going to be mighty.''you are so mighty that we dont even know how mighty you are. but call upon me and i will answer you and show you great and mighty things for which you do not know.please keep us in prayer as this is a way new level and i need gods grace that is sufficient for me......................

I wish we'd all been ready (rapture)

marc mesereau sings this every once in awhile at church and i love it.....

good day

i can honestly say today was a great day.........i woke up and for the first time in a week i havent had to call on my sisters in christ for strength. i could feel god has strengthened me in my inner man. thank god for all there sincere prayers for us, and him for answering them. on sunday when i went in to church i just fell into eunices arms and wept and asked her to pray for me to be strong and then april came over and hugged me and asked how i had slept last nite. i thought about it and said i actually got a great nights sleep for the first time in a while. she had prayed for this. thank god.................. wow do we need each other and i pray when others really need me i will be there for them. i feel like god is saying remember who I am, him being the christ and to remember who i am in him. i am a royal priesthood a daughter of the MOST high and god has a covenant with me to a thousand generations. i have at here and let the enemy toss me around. this battle is not mine it is the lords, and i feel such a peace now knowing god has my back. i remember last week karen not knowing anything praying in the spirit and saying for god to remind me of all his faithfullness to me in the past. all week i thought of each time he has been faithful to me. too many to count. and jules thanks for the e card. it made my day. your awesome. i cant wait till me and paul can get away and visit you guys. god willing.......we all need each other, the enemy wants us to hide away and hold our pain in secret but god wants us to reach out to others and share our burdens and so fullfull the law. i love our body of believers and i am realizing they love me. thank you jesus..............

carnality

pastor frank preached on how their is carnality in our body, wow talk about right in your face. praise god, they are here to prepare us for the new pastor. he said thats why we dont enter in as we could. he left us with alot to think about. pastor kris sold his house. wow fast or what...............they will be here for vbs. i arranged for three people in the comunity to speak but havent got revelation on the fourth yet ,still waiting for god to reveal. i have asked for prayer from my sisters in christ for three days now, just to get thru each day. i cannot go thru this in my life without their prayers and they have been so good to me, and god has strengthened me, more each day. pastor frank said i need tougher skin and god is doing that. i dont want tougher skin.i am reading alot in job lately and for the first time ever i am appreciating this book. some of the scripture is beautiful and humbling, god is god and i am just susan, i dont get to pick my trials, he is in control and i HAVE to trust him. i finally picked two of my sisters in christ after prayer and let it all out, all the ugly dirty truth. i feel better now, i wish i couldve stood up in front of the whole church and just said what i was going thru, but i didnt feel led to do so.i dont care any more, and when god is done with this pastor frank said it will be a glorious testimony of our mighty god. i believe this.cant say i havent stayed humble cause i have. praise god..............

blogging

wow dont much feel like blogging lately and have thought alot about erasing the whole thing and ending my big blogging days...........not sure yet. we have gone out steady with the food pantry but i havent really had the heart for it. i push myself and pray for gods will. i have had such a rough year personally, i know god wants me to forget the circumstances no matter how frustrating trust him and enjoy my life. i honestly can say i dont know how to do that. where is that life and more abundantly. i need to talk to someone who has been there, someone with wisdom, cause i am at my wits end. i finally gave up, and do you know i really feel that is what god wanted me to do..................boy how far i miss the mark all the time. pastor frank said he likes that i am not two faced, not a hypocrite but when i fail in my walk that is exactly what i feel like. please, please pray for us, cause i just dont know anymore................praise god anyways.....................

pastor kris young

it is official and by unanimous vote we elected our new pastor. kris young his wife jada and four children under 13, from texas.very glad and anticipating good things.i said on saturday before the dinner to god and paul that if god didnt hit me the face with this one since it was so quick and i already had been praying, i would vote no. well during the dinner and service everything fell into place and i felt such a peace about yes. and everyone felt that way. praise god. he said the vision god gave him for this church was too big for this building. praise god.

beautiful morning

i have been up since 5.00, got see paul and jordan off for work, which only happens a few times a week as they get up too early for me.after dunkin donuts i dont much like seeing anything before 6.00. ugh....caleb is in an early development class at the high school, he loves it, sabrina , lisa's daughter who by the way, praise god graduates in a couple weeks picked caleb for this 2 month class. he is so quick minded and ready and curious at every new thing. this child is a character. i can chuckle to think of some of the things this child has come out with, he is definetely pauls best buddy. he informed poppy who taked great pride in the fact that the garge is HIS space that from now on it's poppy and calebs garage.so every evening he spends time in the yard with poppy lining up his ride toys in a row in the garage. he is to cute, and only he could get away with that. he willl be 4 at the end of may so we are going to have our annual memorial day picnic which will include caleb's 4th birthday party. hope the pool is ready by then. work is going great. this is a great age group for me. i look forward to teaching each day and my gps is helping so much. my boss just gave me a company cell phone so now i get the responsibilty for charging two each nite. fun. still dont know what to think about eating dinner on satyrday with the new prospective pastor anf family and hearing him preach on sunday then voting. pray for me. all of us , please. and please pray for my brother dennis. he is in a hard place right now in his life. god bless

John Mayer and Eric Clapton - Crossroads (ABC News)

this is a beautiful sound, the harmony on the guitars is AWESOME>>>>

Norah Jones Live Dont Know Why

new pastor?

rose called me to say on the 17th we were having a potluck dinner for a new candidate for pastor and his family.. he is married with four chidren. we will have dinner and the next day he will preach and then we vote. keep them or not? i know pastor frank and donna knew this could happen but how do they feel? wow we got to pray..............that leaves us with alot to think about.

beautiful day

it is so nice out and it is only 8..-- in the morning. i went in on sunday to find bags and bags of food and things to put away for food pantry .bet it took me and lisa and eunice 20 minutes to put it all away. praise god. we had to box some stuff as the cabinet wouldnt hold it. my brother dave works at the bushnell so every once in a while he gets great tickets free, so last night on no notice my mom had two tickets, orchestra seats to jesus christ superstar. i couldnt go as justice has baseball games now and they call him little poppy. he is an athlete for sure. so i called rose and hour an a half before show time and asked her if she wanted to go with my mom. of course rose being rose went. i hope they had a great time. im not passing up any more shows as i love that kind of thing. ordered a gps and it should be here any day. my boss ci ci has been good about giving me kids close. i had a 16 year old twin girl named emily on friday and she was nervous. i hope i get her twin megan some time. it was her third lesson and no one took her on the highway so i said what the heck and she wanted to cry but after we did it she was so proud of her self. she doesnt have parents that take her our much so it will be harder for her. wonder who ill get today................yesterday i was getting ready for work and i got this loud banging on my door, im thinking who is going to bang that loud> lois of course.SHE 'S BACK>>>>>>>>>never a dull moment with her. she weighs about 130 now. she looks so different. i am sure i will see alot of her as we are all at the field so many nights a week for baseball. well gotta go grocery shopping as paul and jordan are running out of lunches for work. god bless

WORKING

i officially started instructing today. my first student was a 17 year old named chelsea. it was her second time out with the school but after a very short time i asked her if her parents have taken her out. she said all the time. so first lesson was cake.wow to be 17 again, your whole life ahead of you and you dont even know it................choices..........its all about the choices.................paul is taking me out tommorow lokking for a good gps, reasonabily priced. so please pray for me. church ha sbeen great, pastor preached on you are either a christain or you or not. both feet in. kinda hard teaching as i feel one foot in the other at the edge. im tired...............i try to do to much in my own strength. please pray for me, iasked for prayer for food pantry as i need help, i asked for that, but god can only get people motivated, and he has perfect timing. i just feel because im in charge what doesnt get done is mine and that is true. i have always known being the head of something is alot of responsbility. i want these people to know jesus loves them and surrender their lives to him. only god can do that too. lisa starts school may 19, please pray for her as i can only imagine, biology will be her field. ugh................i got to talk to the man named charlie about god alst night at the baseball game, and he is longing to know jesus. i was at a loss for words. he has a stump for a leg and it hurts all the time and he showed it to us and i just kept thinking god..what are you gonna do about this? it makes me cry. please pray for him, and me if i am suppose to lead him cause i dont know what to say.

job

god has led me quite alot thru the book of job lately. i never really liked this book. i always thought how unfair. but was it? god is god and he can do what HE wants. i remember eva saying one night when she was a teenager she read job and got so mad she thru the book across the room and from that moment on till even now she has suffered with arthritis. scary...........while reading this verse stood out to me. job 30 20-31 ''i cry to you, but you do not answer me, i stand up and you regard me. but you have become cruel to me. with the strength of your hand you oppose me. you lift me up to the wind and cause me to ride on it. you spoil my success. for i know that you will bring me to death, and to the house appointed for all living. surely he would not stretch out his hand against a heap of ruins. if they cry out when he destrys it. have i not wept for him who was in trouble? has not my soul greived for the poor? but when i looked for good evil came to me. and when i waited for light then came darkness.my heart is in turmoil and cannot rest. days of affliction confront me. i go about morning, but not to the sun. istand up in the assembly and cry out for help. a am a brother of jackals. and a companion of ostiches,my skin grows black and falls from me.my bones burn with fever. my harp is turned to mourning. and my flute to the voice of those that weep. and then i read the end of the matterjob 4210 and the lord restored jobs losses, when he prayed for his friends, indeed the lord gave job twice as much as he had before.it is in no way implying i am like job because i could never measure up but we all have job like experiences and that is why this book is in here, for us as an example. praise god.

pressing thru

no salvation as of yet as i am waiting for opportunity but i feel like god reveales, aubrey, jackie and charlie who is the husband of th elady ialicia cleans for. he lost a leg in a motorcycle accident. he must be about 30 and has one kid. i see him at the baseball field and he talks to us all the time. he used to come up and swear every other word so one day i said charlie you are such a nice guy, why do you have to be so abrasive with that mouth of yours? it doesnt sound nice and i dont like it and im sure the kids do not want to hear it. that was a month ago and do you know he hasnt said one swear word and his dad told alicia he doesnt know how that happened as he has had a foul mouth for years , and even dish soap didnt work. praise god.when i felt god impression his name on my heart, i dont know why but i was surprised, i of course god loves charlie. just havent had the chance to witness to him. he always says theres alicias mom, sunshine, and hes always trying to get paul to do work for him. paul always says he has enough work. please pray. service on sunday was awesome, worship was beautiful and one person spoke out the word god had given them and pastor explained what was happening. he preached on never taking for granted our salvation. every week he shows a clip from the author of the book we are reading ''breakthru prayer'' man these are testimonies right out of the streets. god is amazing and nothing is impossible. pastor said we are not to be concerned with how full the pews are. or how much money comes in, but is gods word going out are we dooing his will even if some get hurt feelings. just do what god wants and let him work out the rest. praise god finally..........................

salvation

we have been going to a young mom named aubrey once a month since the start of food pantry outreach. she has three beautiful daughters and we have grown to care about her. she works a full time job at the hospital and just has trouble at the time her rent is due. so faithfully we come around each month during that time. we get to pray for her and her needs. now i feel is the time to lead her to christ. so please pray as i now feel led to go after this salvation and i know a praise report is coming.................praise god.........jewels in his crown for the reward of his suffering..

breakthru

praise god................big breakthru, the start of great things. one day i will give all these testimonies as god leads and people are not going to believe what god has done. psalm 128 when the lord brought back the captivity of zion, we were like those who dream. then our mouth was filled with laughter and our tongues with singing.then they said among the nations, the lord has done great things for them. the lord has done great thiongs for us and we are glad.praise god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

pressing thru

first of all, please if anyone is out there, please, pray for eunice, her blood pressure has been off the charts and they admitted her to the hospital today. i immediately couldnt stop crying. she has been such a help to me and what an example of christs love. every morning she gets up and prays for all of our husbands, and hers is passed away and she lost a child. her granddaughters renee and jackie are the best two young women. the apples did not fall far from that tree.well i am pressing thru the drama of my life. i thought man i would love to put those covers over my head and not come out. and then i realized this is the way i am, when its hard i want to give up. but everytime god makes me not give up. and then i see im stronger than i think. why do i need to be so strong?????????????????????????????i had true nervous breakdowns and had to call pastor frank for prayer, didnt say anthing but please pray and he did and both times what a tremendous amount of peace god extended to me. i just said evrytime i turn around its one thing after another and i have been hit harder than i ever have and he says in his calm soothing voice that is cause your biggest breakthru ever is coming. FAITH, praise god..................i though what a great way to start out with your new pastors, hi im the cry baby..........only kidding.i thought he has a true pastors heart. i remmeber a few years back god leading me to a study on a true pastors heart., i remember coming to these questions.do they have a diligent prayer life? do they have a sincere and pure devotion to god? do they manifest the fruit of the spirit? do they love sinners, hate wickedness and love righteousness? true leaders of christ will honor christ, lead the church to sanctification, preach the whole word of god, they will refuse to take large amounts of money for themselves, and seek to use it for gods work, not to say god doesnt want them to prosper .there are other ways to test also but these are the ones i recall.study to show thyselves approved a workman that needeth not be ashamed. well anyways i am seeing these qualities so far, thank god. well im rambling as i am tired. i have petitioned for more help in the food pantry with otreach for souls. pleas epray god prepares hearts. god bless

breakthru prayer

pastor frank has started a monthly book club, this month we will be reading ''breakthru prayer'' by jim cymbala. so today we saw a slide by the author on how prayer changed this heroin addicted man he knows, life. it was a wonderful testimony of gods grace. i think we were all touched. i cant wait till my book comes. it was jennas birthday so her friend baked this pistachio cake with whipped creme frosting and it was the largest cake i have seen there. wow..............karen who will be in charge of vbs got a hold of me to tell me she wants me to volunteer to be in charge of the service to the community part of it. i will be in charge of getting people that do outreach in the community to speak, so i said whatever i can do to help. the vbs is ''gods big backyard'' i am just so glad we will be having vbs, last year when rumour was we wouldnt be doing it, a few of us went into prayer, pleading with god to change that. the holy spirit brought to mind each family god had seriously helped thru this outreach. vbs is definetely gods heart................so praise god. pastor frank and donna have such a heart for unsaved people. they have such a heart for us. they want us to succeed, and they love the opportunity to be used by god.the timing is perfect, but isnt that gods way. they keep saying sometimes god allows all these things in your life that you cannot fix so you can lean more on him and watch him fix them. he is our source in everything. it is definetely a growing experience for me.....lisa is not back yet and man is it different without her to talk to. she did call to ask if i passed my test, as she has been praying all along. i hope she is having a wonderful time. our church is growing with new converts and i truly believe if you just do what god wants he will bring the people in. pastor frank said we will see more unsaved then saved. wow fertile ground................well the food pantry is alive and well and praying for a new spin...............whatever god wants.

kasey chambers million tears

i really like the soft sound, with a rough edge of kasey chambers

Kasey Chambers - Not Pretty Enough

i have always loved this song

pay off

WOOH.........TODAY WAS TEST DAY...........I PASSED ON MY WRITTEN WITH A 100. and my driving i passed too. we did have three of us testing, as the guy who we thought bailed was there for testing. i am the only one out of us who passed with a 100, so praise god, and i am not sure if they passed the road as i got to go home as i asked to test first. the inspector said he hasnt seen a 100 in ages. unbelievable.....................praise god. one part of my life looking upwards.i am now an official driving instructor, just gotta wait for my license to come in the mail, and i am on the road.....................who wouldve thought??????????????f

god is still god................

wow, what a rollercoaster of a week of emotions. i feel like im running this race and every distraction is being thrown at me to get me out, and i am at a walk pace, quite dissalusioned, but i feel myself getting sick of feeling sorry for myself and getting ready to put up a fight. oh i am so hurt at all the things that we have been thru, i know god has a purpose but i have no clue to what it is.........'' yet though he slay me, yet will i trust him;; is the only verse that comes on my heart. god is still god, but in my minute mind and perception to things, i am hurt..............where is the breather????i have been stydying for my test which will be in a couple of days, pressing thru all these things, i said man this job has gotta to have more perks down the road then i can even know..........its just got too. one of the three has bailed so its down to me and mike, and she tested us yesterday, and i got double right this time. i am still in this.............taking lisa's daughter, brida, sabrina out for one last brush up on the road lesson and i will study some more and then it is all i got..........this has been a learning time for me on pacing myself, going the extra mile even though its hard and i have seen some results. well i hope i make it, i sure expect too. lisa is leaving in the morning for south carolina to see mel graduate from bootcamp, i am so happy for her. we have walked together thru so much this year with the food pantry, her not being employed , my children. me, her dad, man bittersweet year. she deserves this, she has been a good friend and sister in christ, and i thank god for her. please pray she has a GREAT time. my prayer life has stunk, i cannot fake my walk with god, i never will, my faith has been shaken, but i know god is still god, and he is in control and i say this thru tears.......knowing he loves us and he knows what is happening here even though i am in shock. even my marriage has taken a beaten but i have definetely seen god use this to change us.......praise god.......................

Pastor Rance Allen- If You Believe He'll See You Through

PRAISE GOD.......................

Because of who YOU Are

beautiful praise god

Martha Munizzi

Martha Munizzi Renew Me

my prayer

MercyMe - Bring The Rain

amen

Here With Me - MercyMe

this is my heart....

Mercy Me - Word of God Speak

this is the first time i have heard this, relevant

Mercy Me - I can Only Imagine

the first time i heard this , i had to drop to my knees

Everything by Lifehouse

i still want this as my backgroung for my blog.......i want marc mesereau to sing this. it is perfect for his voice. never know.....

warfare week

today was my first day back since friday to classroom and it was refreshing...............i have had the rollercoaster week of....i actually dont know what to call it. so many questions to why????????? this has been an awful week, and while it has all worked out as god promised, i had to walk thru those waters that didnt sweep over me, and go thru those fires that didnt burn me, and honestly this time i was hurt and i was mad. i am so tired of going thru something, i had to check myself to make sure i wasnt being rude to god. that sure wouldnt be to my benefit, although i know he understands, i just dont want to be unappreciative, but man sometimes, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH>>>>>>>>>>..i cant apologize for that. but god knows, and as i said class was refreshing, we went over all our study notes and man this job requires alot out of us. but i so want to do it, and at some point i will....please pray i can absorb all this knowledge i will need to know and focus. i know this is a way to some extent, of answered prayer as for years i would say god, please help me focus. i have so much trouble in that area and i believe that comes from being an abused kid, trying to forget and escape. well god knows how for me to get it right.praise god.......

psalm 137

i was just thinking about this scripture, and how it relates to pastor donna's word today.

By the rivers of babylon we sat and wept, when we remembered zion.there on the poplars we hung our harps, for there our captors askd us for songs,our tormentors demanded songs of joy.they said ''sing us one of the songs of zion'' how can we sing the songs of the lord, while in a foreign land? if i forget you o jerusalem, may my right hand forget his skill, may my tongue cling to the roof of my mouth, if i do not remember you, if i do not consider jerusalem my cheifest joy. i love this word and god ahs given it to me many times, my teeth has been the most significant. but remembering what pastor said , god doesnt want us to look at the circimstances of the situations, no matter how big they may be, he wanted us to look at him and remember who HE was and that he was bigger than any problem we had and believe this............it was relevant and humbling, god knows.............

Sara Bareilles,

this is the new song in my head...........

nice service

today was a nice service, alot are preparing for the easter musical next week. i have been so tired lately,went more out of obligation than desire but the holy spirit was sweet there today and when pastor donna started giving the word in prophetic unction i could feel the holy spirit hit me like fire, i knew god was saying''pay attention;; she just states the word as god said, no hesitation, no doubt, standing in gods authority. wow...........god wants us to know how mighty he is and BELIEVE it. i was humbled. also marc mesereau did a solo and it was so sweet, the holy spirit was all over it cause it was sincere. i love when he sings.and praise god jenna announced the start to the princess and the kiss ministry/ oh how god has been preparing her. what a beautiful transformation. thank you jesus. we are sending out invites for our easter musical so i am getting these out now. may god be glorified. if i be lifted up, i will draw all men unto me. may we do it in such a way, people will be drawn to HIM................

Christina Aguilera-

christina has one of the most beautiful naturally gifted voices i have ever heard and i like this song....................

Mariah Carey - One Sweet Day

i always liked this song, i love music

testing

well today was test time, and as sad as i am to say i failed the written which meant i never got to the driving part, the other two guys failed too. so, while i am dissapointed, i definetely dont feel as bad. i put such an emphasis on getting comfortable on the road and have gone out over and over again with a couple tenagers i know who have their permits that i went in today confident of the road test. who wouldve ever thought i would say that? i told my teacher today, that although i may have been the hardest to teach, in the end i will be one of the better instructors. i believe that, as i will master this, and i get along very well with this age group. im sorry that i dont get paid until i pass, so i am broke, but up ahead are good things......praise god

week of rest

got a break from driving for the week as our test was postponed. i needed it, but now is time to go over all i have learned. please pray for me, as this is the hardest thing i have done in a long time, and i have put in the most effort ever........... lisa and i spent the day together and she is doing better, she is going to go to school to be a cna, so please keep her in prayer as she launches out to new beginnings. she misses her dad but he did not suffer. thank god. and he left the girls something which no one would ever want that way but it will help her in her new start........she already started giving, her compassion for people has grown in leaps and bounds, god has used her tremendously,she cares about people. this comes from god. praise jesus. we will be paving the church driveway soon as the new pastor has had this burden from the start. it will be nice to not drive in a ton of mud any more. the new pastors are restoring some order back we lost. we ahve grown in leaps and bounds and i like how we all have maintained our positions but we still need to learn and be teachable. always more to learn.......i was thinking the other day how i never mention the berubes and how involved they have been in all that has gone on. they are so plugged in to the growth in every way, i am thankful to have both of them in our body. and eunice, isabelle, lynn, karen kibbe and grace. and marc and tom from worship team have grown in leaps and bounds. god is so faithful even when we are not so faithful to everything. i know this first hand. it is humbling.........and our new pastor donna functions in the prophetic and it flows freely, something i have not ever seen. wow god has brought us a long.....way.pastor frank has such a heart for people. he looves them and you can see his heart is for us to grow in our relationship with jesus, god has quite a team there, and i believe we are going to grow a lot. the word that comes is refining, ugh...........sorry god but i know growing and stretching sometimes hurts.but is necessary.my worst times in the natural have been some of my best times in spiritual growth, but it wasnt easy but when i look back it was all necessary and beneficial to me in the long run to my walk with god. i have so far to go. food pantry is a little slower but steady, its funny how it works perfectly with my time available. i have a delivery on thursday to a lady i have been praying for . for years now. she was so glad it was me and i was glad it was her, please pray i can minister to her every way god wants. well the easter musical is soon, the princess ministry is soon whether jenna does it or me, i am not sure yet, and vbs is coming. preparation........ i am excited, tired but excited. i just gotta pass this test and go on from there. julie lightner has invited me down with cathy in may, hope time permits this as it would be so nice to see julie and family, i love them they are a great family and jules is fun..............i could really enjoy spending some time with her and the kid must have grown so much. well, god willing.

MADE IT

made it thru lisa's dad's wake. was reluctant feeling before i got there, worked today, then got a call for emegency delivery of food. so had to rush finding something to wear, nothing fits anymore, and run to the store, the church, to the families house then to the wake. once i got there though, it was one of the best times i have had in a long time, i saw people i havent seen in ages, and lisa made deb and me sit with her and stay, so we talked alot to her. she was doing so good, melanie flew home from boot camp, so her being home for a few days made lisa happy. melanie looks great. if noone knows, she is stationed in south carolins unitl june.she is in the national guard. go mel............they had a memory board with all the pictures form the pizza shop, lisa's family owned when we were kids. lisa was so skinny............memories. we are getting old, .but we had good times as teenagers and lisa and i have stayed friends thru it all. she is a gift to me from god. who wouldve known.her mom gloria who is at the beginning of alzheimers, said ''susan.''..i have always loved you..same thing ron daigles mom says to me. i love both of them too.so many people marveled at the way my mom hardly changes and someone said i look great. yeah right........thats what i said to, i dont know how to just say thank you to people. i know what i look like, ugh..........well tomorrow is the funeral and we are having a catered dinner at the church.

John John Kennedy The Prince Of America

A Tribute to John F. Kennedy Jr.

i still collect john john memorabilia, ever since i was a teenager.

Keith Urban - You'll Think of Me (Best Live Performance)

this is an awesome song

What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts

i really enjoy listening to rascal flats. distinctive voice...........

ugh

went to church today, although i will say honestly. my heart was not in it. had a couple food pantry deliveries that were already promised, so i wasnt slacking there. i have so much on my mind, and man this driving is really stressing. shouldnt be so hard. i have decided not to make it so hard , i will try and that is it.........and lisa, that just breaks my heart. the first thing she said is sqwuuz, i didnt get to say goodbye. and what am suppose to say, i feel like crying for her. the wake will be tues and funeral wednesday, with dinner afterwards at our church. i have to be strong and help lisa and her family, and this week is my test. i really need prayer, when i get overwhelmd i shut down mentally, i feel that happening. NOT A GOOD TIME> and today after lazing around all day yesterday, i just came in from church thinking ugh this house needs a good cleaning, and here in the house comes brother byron, wanted to crawl in a hole and wither away, but he had come to talk to jordan, byron has a good heart........but i sure hope i can show him a clean house next time. ugh..............betcha there house is always clean. ugh...........

life is meaningless

everytime someone dies, i say this. to me i hate the thought of someone here one moment and then gone like they never were even here to begin with. my best friend lisa called me today and i knew right way something was terribly wrong.her dad has passed away, wasnt even sick, looked great all the time. i taked to her niece, her sister, one of her daughters and her son, all in one day, looking for reasoning. i felt totally at such a loss of words for all of them. this is the third person in lisas family i have had to watch her suffer thru in the 35 years i have been friends with her. i love lisa and her family, and i feel for all of them. they are a strong family. i care about all of them. please keep them in prayer. i couldnt even imagine not knowing jesus and trying to reason out death, sometimes even with jesus it is hard but it is bearable.i will miss wilbur myself, and am so thnakfull he was saved, but what about those we truly love that arent saved, that would not feel good at all and not seem fair. i just dont know......... but in my heart of hurts even though i dont understand a whole lot of things, god is still good. he is god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

joshua 10-24

''when they had brought these kings to joshua, he summoned all the men of israel and said to the army commanders who had come with them,;come here and put your feet on the necks of these kings. so they came forward and placed their feet on their necks.'' i really believe god is saying KEEP your feet on the enemys neck.this is more relevant than i even know, lately god has shown up gloriously in our midst, but on the othe side of that i have gotten attacked one thing after another, it started to wear me down, exactly what the enemy wants. i know god sent that woman yesterday to remind me to take my stand, he has given us all authority over the enemy, and all month god has reminded me of my words.i have to consciously line my mouth up with what god says and not what i see. faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen. it is so hard to balance things , now that i am more involved in ''church things'' which not to say are unimportant, but god has never worked in my life thru what i have done for him, but thru the time i have spent with him..............thats why the story of mary at jesus's feet is so relevant and martha got so mad, she felt she was doing all the work, but jesus cares do we have a relationship with HIM. how quickly he will wake me up, whatever it takes when i get off track. praise god.......

GOD IS GOOD

i have been hit so hard in a few areas of my life, the enemy is always trying to wear me down, but god in his awesome faithfullness, sent someone my way today to remind me of who I REALLY AM IN CHRIST. THANK YOU JESUS, i will not stand on the sidelines any longer , i am in this fight. god always causes me to truimph in christ jesus. thank you jesus...........

tired

today, to be honest and real i want to say, i am tired of pressing thru all the junk.......................................................................................when does it EVER end???? I AM TIRED..........................

valentines day and my birthday

very peaceful day, they cancelled class for the day and everyone is out and about so the house is MINE. it is so quiet, i need clearing of the mind time. thank you jesus. my new boss, ci ci called and wants to spend individual time with out the guys with me next week. thank god...........i need it. i am looking at my dining room table, there area dozen orange roses, pink roses, orande and yellow tulips, about 10 beautiful cards two boxes of large half eaten choolates. i got totally blessed , thats why i love valentines day and my birthday, four days apart and it is awesome, but this year was just extra overboard. paul just spoiled me rotten with a large gift certificate to walmart, 2 dozen roses 2 boxes candythe best card, which is themost important gift to me personnally,, alicia jordan and laura splurged on this beautiful amethyst gold necklace. i love it, lisa gave me money to add to my gift certificate, and the women at the church gave me so many beautiful cards, my mom filled a bag with so many goodies, and my sister renee came with those beautiful tulips. god is soooo good.,memorable to say the least. not that gifts are the only thing that matters, but it sure is nice. especially when i didnt expect it. the snow is coming down so hard , it lookis pretty out there. well time to go study for the written part of my test which is coming. praise god.................

nat king cole - unforgettable

this song reminds me of paul...........

Crying Holy (Unto My Lord) w/ Vince Gill

i really like vince gill and bluegrass, makes you want to get up and move your feet

Tim McGraw - Something Like That

this is my favorite tim mcgraw song, although i love the softer ones to, this one hits the fun side of me...........

Faith Hill - It Matters To Me

i like faith hill, but this is the only song i really like that she sings, but i love all of her husbands songs tim mcgraw

what did i get myself into

the only analagy that comes to mind to define the last 2 days of training is i am in the airplane, high up in the air, parachute on, the person in front of me is about to jump and uh oh here comes my turn. and i would NEVER skydive, but here i am...................my mind is so in overload, k turns merging head checks, position back up, the inspector is coming, i will need a hour and half route prepared, and i am illiterate when it comes to a map and have to pick up two teenagers back to back in two different towns on roads i have never even heard of. UGH>>>>>>>>>>>>the two guys i am training with, mike and glen have done everything they could do to give me a crash course on reading a map, and i will say i am getting it, but realistically it will take more than the few days i have to learn it. but no matter what, it is now my mission to read a map, and master it. i talked to paul, honey i really need a gps system. glen has a portable one, and i think i will need this, and even then, i am totally out of my comfort zone. my instrutor ci ci hates out of your comfort zone, that is like out of her vocabulary, she just believes you want to learn? then you will learn.period.........i like her she is positive and right away because of her training i do not knock myself down in front of others , because if you doubt yourself others will doubt you and i have done that alot in the past. but scared, yes.want to quit right here, yes. will i?ABSOLUTELY NOT........everywhere you have set your feet i have given you and i CAN do all things thru christ who strengthens me.god is stretchiiiiiing me.......................praise god........

ministry

all the materials came in for the princess and the kiss ministry. jenna gave me one to look over and i couldnt wait to dive in. i read the story then started to go over the 21 life lesssons that will be taught in this class. i am at lesson nine and i have been hooked at # 1. i am writing a list of the things that will be needed to get us thru each class, such as notebooks, construction paper etc. i feel that because we only have 10 to start and this did cost 500.00, we will solely offer this first class to our body of young girls and those young girls in our families, after all we need this first. but these books can be used over and over again and i figured for 50-to 100 we can teach each other class to follow. at least once yearly as need arises or community interest. however god leads. I AM EXCITED.......now to spur jenna on..............the waters are troubled now....i am praying for a start of first week of april running into may. may god totally have his way with this important teaching.....praise god.

valentines day outreach dinner

last nights dinner was awesome. everyone came and the place was packed. pastor frank and pastor donna did a skit that was so funny and the holy spirit was all over it, i looked around and saw tears in some eyes, and children that were there stood up boldly to receive christ as their savior. there was so much food and the gifts took all thru the night to give away. i believe all had a great time. god really honored all our effort and how we all worked in unison. i just praise god for his faithfullness. byron stood up today and said this was the best outreach to the community we have had since he had started there back in 200, and it was effective.. and even after all that i went in to find a few bags to put away for food pantry. people had still done there shopping as they always do for our food outreach. i will say i was tired today and came home and took a little nap. but all was so worth it. we are having a easter outreach musical and they asked for volunteers to sing in it and so many stood up, even byron. wow.and karen kibbe and renee faberquist are the best singers, in talent and in true worship to our lord. music ministry is a booming for jesus. talents and gifts that have lied dormant are coming out of these people that we never even knew were there. praise god......................even some that havent been there in years have now resurfaced and are so willing tpo participate. this is an OUTREACH to the community body and god is all over that. the holy spirit moved in such a sweet way today, ifelt like my knees were going to buckle under me . i love jesus.........................

god is good

last nite we set up for tonites dinner, it was a challenge as we have more people coming in then ever before, but with god if he is in it, it will work out and it did. praise god, tonite is going to be GREAT......... i finished my book on generational curses quite a while ago now and felt led to say that i dont believe that generational curses per say pertains to us as christians once we truly have accepted christ. we are a new creation, old things have passed away, behold all things have become new. but mindsets, behaviors habits, can carry over into the next generation and we need to bring them down with the help of the holy spirit and the renewing of our minds.applying gods word can do this, be not only hearers of the word, but doers of the word. i went for my first physical in seven years, had to for my new job and as i am overweight,big surprise. i got a good bill of health. praise god. i still have 20 20 vision which totally surprised as my eyes feel tired often.but he did say now is the time to change behavior patterns as i am closing in to an age that is crucial. ugh........my periphial vision is perfect which is very crucial to be a defensive driving instructor. i figured it had to be good as i am a good juggler and that takes this kind of vision. well i am working toward behavior changes in the area that need to be addressed so please keep me in prayer.god bless

When you say Nothing at all - Alison Krauss

i absolutely LOVE allison krause and union station

ministry

looked in the cabinet in food pantry today and it was FULL. praise god.......rose preached today as the new interim pastors had a former previous engagement, she spoke on being used by god to reach out to others. i thank god for rose, i already know god is no respector of persons, men are no better in gods eyes than women. yes we are to be reverant to our husbands as they are to treat us as christ treats the church. there is a place for each of us. anyways i see how god uses rose and how she has stood the test of time thru alot of adversity, but she trusted god. her example as a leader to us is amazing. praise you jesus for rose. we have over 100 yes's to our valentines reach out dinner. halleluhah.......this will be a memorable night and the donations for give away gifts to bless them stands at record i am sure. our body is involved in the community and we are truly standing united. a three fold cord cannot easily be broken. and the worship team is coming along beautifully. wow have they grown and it is awesome. i believe as we continue to be obedient, we will be moving into a bigger building. we will need it at some point. i am done with classroom training for my new prospective job and am now entering on the road defensive driving......wooh.......i have already changed a few of my driving habits as i believe live what you teach. but as my teacher says it is not about can we drive it is about can we teach others to drive. i hope so, and i am giving this training all i have and feel the four of us are to be a great team. my weakness will be maps, finding the kids i am picking up, and implementing constuctive critisism , as i tend to not like to hurt others feeling. driving is a privelege so i can do what needs to be done. one area i will be trained in that will help me is in car mechanical safety. i will learn hos to check cars for inspection.cool.........i made 100 valentine candy roses for the dinner and did them in approx 10 hours. i painte deach mold separately, and they look so pretty but glad they are done. my time is so limited, i have to mangage things alot differently but i am learning. praise god.........................

2008

started my first day of driving school training. i seem to be the only girl in class, but i am not intimidated, .i have to get fingerprinted, a criminal background check motor vehicle record pulled and a physical. i left dunkin donuts. yeah....................and i get to keep my cleaning job, going on 6 years at that job, god gave me that job, and i know he has kept me there.going to be interesting to say the least. i will try my best and we will see. the instructor said when we take the test the dmv instructor will purposely swerve off the road, and do things to catch you off guard, im like great.....................hope i dont yell at him. we are starting to get calls on our dinner at church and the new pastor and his wife will now be helping. on sunday the pastor and his brother in law were there, his wife was sick so she wasnt, i was just feeling a little worn out and discouraged, god used so many people that day to encourage me. and then at the end the brother in law approaches me and gives a encouraging word, he said god told him.. i just thought thanks god, cause sometimes life gets hard and the enemy steps up the pressure when he knows good is up ahead. AND IT IS>>>>>>>>>my two older grandchildren, justice and destiny will be 11 and 10 tomorrow. wow life has gone by. justice is such a good kid, his teachers always praise his behavior and eagerness to learn, he has a natural ability at sports and computers. i said justice , wow 11, what will that mean in 2 years? he says i will be a teenager, im like yeah, then he gives me his shy little grin and says boo, then i can get 10 nose rings and a lip ring. i couldnt stop laughing as i know him and he is totally not that kind of kid, but im am always so on him about things he loves to push my buttons. and destiny, she is little boo, i see so much of me in her. she loves people, very outgoing and loves to read and sing and be active in things, she is beautiful to me and so photogenic, her smile could light up a room. i so love all my grandchildren. god has been good to me.i stand in awe of god and the indivduality there in all 5 of them. i am firmer in certain ways with them than my own, and i see myself very much encouraging the gifts god has given them. god is good.

2208

hey, i just received and started reading a book i have wanted to read for a while now. it is by larry huch and it is called ten curses that block the blessing. the ten he listed are 1.the curse of spoken words 2.legalism 3.unforgiveness. 4. idolatry. 5.failing to honor your father and mother. 6.withcraft 7.racism 8. gossip. 9, not tithing. 10.harm to the innocent. whew...........just pondering the list, a few caught my attention. the curse os spoken words, i automatically think of the verse that states life and death are in the power of the tongue, and you shall eat the fruit thereof. i know what this meana and yet the more the pressure applied to the situation i am in each time, the more i have to consciously make sure my words line up with gods words and not the situation. instantly i knew i have a lot to work on in this area. IMPORTANT AREA> also the honering you mom and dad, i feel like i fall short all the time in this area, i dont have a dad, and i really love my mom, but sometimes i find it hard to be that honering daughter, this eats at me all the time. but sometimes my mom is hard, we spend alot of time toghether but i dont make the effort at quality time. i need prayer for this........idolatry is something i like to always look at cause its easy to let other things take gods place, constantly have to check myself, judge yourself lest you be judged. i always rather judge myself, and that with the same measure you judge others with that same measure you will be judged. ugh......well as i read i am praying for revelation to the areas god wants to see changed in my life. praise god.........

new beginings

wow 2008 is off to a great start. i applied last week for a new job as a driving instructor, have to go for 45 hours of training then take a test then if i pass it, im in...........................dunkin donuts will then be history................i also called today to join the gym. i will bravely try it for three months, my brother dave is a lifer there, they will quickly see the difference between siblings as he has always worked out as far back as i can remember and i have always not..............we have a new ministry starting soon as jenna has agreed to do the princess and the kiss. a approx 6 week course for mothers and daughters on teaching purity before marriage. the first day i announced it a woman came up and said god told me to give 500. this will buy 12 packages. 12 families can come, i was worried how we would pull this money part off as we want to offer free to the community. god amazes me every time, and i am already praying for men to step up for the next class which will be the squire and the noble, a program on purity for boys. this is an exciting year for ministry and me. praise god

NEW YEAR

wow 2008 is looking promising, some things have held over from last year but things are overall hopeful. it seems like everyone has had the idea of throwing a big dinner for the community in feb, we are all on the same page in this and it is great. we will be focusing on food pantry recipients and others and offering a free spaghetti dinner, with games door prizes etc. this is exciting....................looks like we have a permanent interim part time pastor. a couple, and if first impressions say anything we are excited. we will still function as we have done but have guidance and this is wonderful. the superintendant said he is impressed with the way things have run and god is totally here. praise god...........i really feel things ahead are going to be great. we will now have guidance with the small things we need help on but not control and the holy spirit will be free to move and above all CHRIST is the head of our church. to him be all the glory.

ALICIA KEYS - NO ONE [ NEW BRAND SINGLE HQ COMPLETE LYRICS ]

this is a secular song but evertime i hear it i think about god and lisa said the same. praise god

Minnie Riperton - Loving you

i remember this as a young girl, how awesomw...............

2007

well now that ive revealed my weaknesses and am done feeling sorry for my self i was thinking about 2007 and what a weird year it has been. alot of like rototilling the ground happening in me and those around me. alot of seed planted and i believe a harvest will come up good if we keep our eyes on god. i have met so many people this year thru my job and am excited at the relationships, had so much freedom in ministry in me and in our body of believers, its amazing. its like hands have been untied and the sky is the limit. whoa, god is good. i finally realized people are my ministry, god has given me such a gift for people and i know others would say duh, but really this is just hitting me.people just let me in their homes for food pantry, pour their hearts out to me, and some things i know others would not want to hear these things. i get along so well with the ghetto girls at work and i only say this cause they always tell me ''we are the ghetto''as they live in the worst part of hartford and always have, and i love them.the customers are from all walks and i have something to say to all of them and i have built relationships there. one customer at christmas gave me a gift and a card that said i had been such a light to them in the toughest time of their life that he had to thank me. i never know who is hurting that bad. praise god. and rose, to see her walk so sure of herself and god use her so much as our leader cause she really is being the deacon with still no pastor. and byron has been preaching with his power points and back to the basics of christianity,so many have never heard just the basic message and he is doing so well, and hes smiling agin something we havent seen in a long time.and david blake has done some preaching and what a innocent humble heart he has. alicias boyfriend and his mom accepted christ right there on the spot after david preached such a simple back to christ message. and after byron a lady i know went running down to the alter to give her life to jesus. god is so changing us.........back to the smplicity of christ, my yoke is not heavy and my burden light, how i so quickly forget this.it seems like the ones that are letting god use them and even just a little bit are so being transformed right before our eyes. to god be all the glory........

resolutions

i was thinking last night about resolutions and reflecting on the things god has been speaking to me personally. fasting and prayer have really been on my heart for alot of reasons, and the lack of self control in my personal life have been a big issue, specifically overeating and smoking cigarettes.i feel i am at a crossroads and god is so good to me and uses me tremendously but he keeps reminding me of how i dont seem to care so much about me. others yes, him yes, me no................i figure whats the use? i will just fail agin, wow really laying out my heart here. so i havent made any resolutions but i am going to make some small changes as cindy says start with baby steps, wow how many times can someone go around the same mountain. we all have our issues and mine are right in your face. ugh.........please keep me in prayer cause life is going by and i have to make changes before they wont make a difference any more. but i am anticipating 2o08 with excitement, and please pray for an answer for my teeth as this is the worst thing i dont like about me..................god bless