2009

i know i havent blogged in ages. havent had anything to say. can you believe this? i have to chuckle to myself as i write it. our church is still intact, growing in leaps and bounds. god is awesome. pastor kris says if we focus on salvation, bringing people to jesus, all else will fall in place. he preaches the word, and thats it. he has so much energy and ambition, everything i wouldve wanted in a pastor. holy spirit led, family focused and him and jada totally sold out for christ. i have stayed in the background letting them settle in, and lead. i am in a complacent state of mind. not a good place to be, but god is still speaking thru others to me and in my heart. 2008 was a difficult year and it sure carried over already into this year. i dont understand why god allows some of these things but i have grown. things that wouldve sunk me under in times past, i can walk thru, without feeling like every part of my heart is broken. but i do feel a little disallusioned. i truly believe god is good anyways, and if i press on the future is bright. i have a new computer, and it actually works good. praise god for that as i use it often. since pastor joe left we have had the same people on the board. they must be tired by now. so voting again. i am not so good in church politics. praying god will totally have his way. food pantry is still going and we have reached people on a personal level thru this ministry and some are attending church. praise god. i dont know what the future hold for this ministry but god knows. its been a good ride. we have met so many new people. well work is slow right now as it is winter, i feel change is coming in our lives, i have felt this all year, i dont know what this means, but its going to be big and different and maybe out of my comfort zone. but definetely goood in the long run. i really wonder if we 'll move, and there is nothing to even make me think that in the natural, but we dont always only participate in the natural. i just wanna praise god for a wonderful surprise prayer answered. i have been praying for a few years now about my siblings. dave and john have been not as close in all our lives as i wouldve liked. my grandchildren barely knew them and to me NOT RIGHT. well now justice is on daves basketball team and dave picks him up each week. and we had an all out get together for my moms birthday and it was evident that we all want the same thing. a close knit family. god did a great job answering my prayer. jordan is doing well he has turned into quite the young man. 25 now. laura will be going to school in the spring. and alicia and the kids are fine. she will be 29 in march. oh my god i am getting older....................please pray for me , i need out of this complacency. thanks and cindi HI i always miss you.........hope all is well.