pressing thru

first of all, please if anyone is out there, please, pray for eunice, her blood pressure has been off the charts and they admitted her to the hospital today. i immediately couldnt stop crying. she has been such a help to me and what an example of christs love. every morning she gets up and prays for all of our husbands, and hers is passed away and she lost a child. her granddaughters renee and jackie are the best two young women. the apples did not fall far from that tree.well i am pressing thru the drama of my life. i thought man i would love to put those covers over my head and not come out. and then i realized this is the way i am, when its hard i want to give up. but everytime god makes me not give up. and then i see im stronger than i think. why do i need to be so strong?????????????????????????????i had true nervous breakdowns and had to call pastor frank for prayer, didnt say anthing but please pray and he did and both times what a tremendous amount of peace god extended to me. i just said evrytime i turn around its one thing after another and i have been hit harder than i ever have and he says in his calm soothing voice that is cause your biggest breakthru ever is coming. FAITH, praise god..................i though what a great way to start out with your new pastors, hi im the cry baby..........only kidding.i thought he has a true pastors heart. i remmeber a few years back god leading me to a study on a true pastors heart., i remember coming to these questions.do they have a diligent prayer life? do they have a sincere and pure devotion to god? do they manifest the fruit of the spirit? do they love sinners, hate wickedness and love righteousness? true leaders of christ will honor christ, lead the church to sanctification, preach the whole word of god, they will refuse to take large amounts of money for themselves, and seek to use it for gods work, not to say god doesnt want them to prosper .there are other ways to test also but these are the ones i recall.study to show thyselves approved a workman that needeth not be ashamed. well anyways i am seeing these qualities so far, thank god. well im rambling as i am tired. i have petitioned for more help in the food pantry with otreach for souls. pleas epray god prepares hearts. god bless