a mothers love

i was sitting here tonite thinking........and when i write i dont know if others are reading and honestly i dont care. it has been like my personal journal. i remember when my children were little, honestly i never once in all the years of them growing up thought the day would come. how very naive of me. i feel very differently now as i watch my grandchildren. god gives us our children to borrow, they are really his children and we are to raise them in love and to know that god loves them. i feel my son has gone from a child to now a man. i see all he has gone thru and he is now a man. and yet i still love him and his sisters as if they were those little children i once had.appreciate your children, love them with every bit of the heart god gave you. yes discipline them when needed but always love them. god said we will know his disciples by the love they have for one another. you will not get back not one precious moment not one precious day, so please just love them, cause i sure do love mine.................and i praise god for all he has given me.

my job

i havent really wrote to much about my job lately, but this has been good. i feel totally at ease and in my element to be a driving instructor. it is definetely a god thing........ i have met so many teenagers, and its funny i have a good repoire with the girls but there is something about the boys that amazes me. they just open up to me and talk the whole two hours. i have had quite a few get in the car look at me for quite a few seconds to the point of uncomfortableness and then smile. what do they see? i can only imagine...........my boss is so good to us she gives us gas cards, gift cards for dinner and for shopping. i had asked god to work for someone who would give me favor, someone who shows there appreciation to you if you are dedicated and even renee my cleaning boss has done extra things for me lately/ god will cause even the rebellious to give us gifts. every time he has brought me to this verse i know something good is coming from someone i least expect it from. and everytime it has.............i think of how excited i was at the beginning of 08 knowing this was a special year and then all hell broke loose. isnt that the way? god gives us the prophetic word and the enemy launches attack to get us to doubt the word. he is such a liar.................no devil in hell can take what god has for us...........and dont ever think they can. praise god and to him be all the glory.....................

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you better believe it..................

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champions

justices baseball team went all the way to the championships and tonite won first place. he has played for 5 years now and never even came close. i prayed they would win as all the other negative i would be thrilled to see him bring home his very first baseball trophy and first place champions. i am so happy for him and his team. the game was supposed to be last nite and pastor kris and his son were going to be there to cheer us on but it got rained out and they headed home today. but lois and jenna and family came to cheer us on. that was so nice of all of them................ the game was so close and at the end not even realizing it i yelled out so loud thank you jesus. i dont normally do that but i knew god had answered my prayer as he will be faithful to all my prayers in his time................lois and jenna couldnt even believe i did that with all those people. but really thank you jesus. some of the people have had so many questions for me about god this season cause they hear us talking and tonite a few said i am one of the swetest ladies they know. i heard them all talking about me, and i couldnt believe they all liked me like that. you never know how god is using situations to touch people. well praise god the mets are this years first place champions...justice played third base and pitcher.

sundays service

sunday was a great service..............pastor kris was there with his son austin who is 13 and looks just like his mom jada. they are here looking for an apartment until they can find a house. we took up a collection the former sunday to help them and on sunday the board put 2000.00 into their hands, god is a good god. pastor donna preached her last sermon to us as next week will be there last sunday with us. she prayed and asked god for the message and man god showed up. she said we need to hold onto the dreams god gave us. how we have let the enemy beat us down and think god wouldnt bring them to pass. she told us how they found her husbands sister years ago dead on the street and how their own daughter died of a drug overdose. oh my god, if you saw these two people and the love they feel for people and jesus you would never think they would have walked thru all that. i thought jeez, i had to hang on. and then god reminded me of my calling and to confirm it he gave me one word for one person and it was enough for me to have hope again. she came to lay hands on me and all i remmeber is hearing fresh issues of living water and down i went and poor byron he tried to catch me, but sadly i got some weight on that little boy. somehow thru gods grace i landed fine and travailed in prayer. i felt so new afetr that. i thought jeez god will i ever come to apoint where i am not so needy so i cam help someone else. everyone thet was up there was touched that day. god is doing a new thing. can you not perceive it? ig got to pray for a woman tonite i ahve known for years, bound by drugs for years now. lost everything. she prayed to accept christ into her life and i prayed against the enemys attacks in her life. he has no true hold now. praise god. this is a way new time. how close are we really to our lords return? i have thought more about that lately then ever. god reminded me of how i always asked him not to let my children be left behind. did i believe he would answer. what would we go thru to get that answer. would it be worth theior souls? yes, and i say that thru tears. but honestly yes....................to god be all the glory in everything...........

new thing

i feel like the last couple days god is speaking to me about using my situation as the start of breakthru for alot of people. when i think back i feel like god uses me alot to do new things in our body. i say this with all humility cause i have said plenty of times cant you use someone else? sorry god.............i feel like he wants me to NOW tell it all and watch this cause others to open up about things they have not told and then deliverance is going to come to alot of people. i havent come to terms with this yet and i always need ten times the confirmation. i dont want to do it in my flesh but i will perform all his pleasure. after all he knows what is best. yesterday, i think my driving car was in the shop so my boss called and said miss sue today is your day off with full pay, enjoy it and do something for you. and then i go grocery shopping and right on the ground with noone around is some money crumpled up. so i said god i have been wanting to get a pedicure, never had one in my whole life. so i head to the place where rose suggested i go but i see this other place and the word in the window says pedicure and it stands out to me. so i go make an appt for an hour later. i had just prayed the night before god use me to help someone else in this situation. i feel im ready now. by the way the woman spent two hours on my feet. that was the best.....and i will do it again after i get a facial and a massage.......praise god..........anyways she ia talking and then she starts to share about her life. her and her husband had been divorced for 10 years, she still loved him. neither had ever married again but the last year they started seeing each other again.their daughter and what they were going thru with her had brought them back together.-she was in agony at the path her daughter had now taken. she said her name and i said to myself oh god what are you doing here? then she showed me a picture, i knew this girl, beautiful young girl, i had prayed for her she had the same issue i was now going thru. and to top it off they were cousins to one of our church memebrs. not a coincidence. so i told her my story and shared that her daughter was a start to what had happened to my son. oh my god..............so i asked her could we pray for both of them and she took my hands and we stood there and prayed. i thought as i was leaving that that was a divine encounter and i got a little scared to think where are you going to be sending me.? then i thought well if god was going to go with me what do i care? i still shake my head to think of what god is going to do. deliverance is coming to those that have been bound for years, salvation is coming. we are going into enemy territory and bringing out the spoils. some trials if god showed me ahead of time i would have run...................i remember years ago when that verse stood out to me if this has wearied you then how will you do in the floodplains of jordan and i thought what does that mean? i knew it meant something.he was saying this is nothing. oh boy help me lord.............................i have to hand in do as god leads whether it hurts or not and watch his mighty hand....and its going to be mighty.''you are so mighty that we dont even know how mighty you are. but call upon me and i will answer you and show you great and mighty things for which you do not know.please keep us in prayer as this is a way new level and i need gods grace that is sufficient for me......................

I wish we'd all been ready (rapture)

marc mesereau sings this every once in awhile at church and i love it.....

good day

i can honestly say today was a great day.........i woke up and for the first time in a week i havent had to call on my sisters in christ for strength. i could feel god has strengthened me in my inner man. thank god for all there sincere prayers for us, and him for answering them. on sunday when i went in to church i just fell into eunices arms and wept and asked her to pray for me to be strong and then april came over and hugged me and asked how i had slept last nite. i thought about it and said i actually got a great nights sleep for the first time in a while. she had prayed for this. thank god.................. wow do we need each other and i pray when others really need me i will be there for them. i feel like god is saying remember who I am, him being the christ and to remember who i am in him. i am a royal priesthood a daughter of the MOST high and god has a covenant with me to a thousand generations. i have at here and let the enemy toss me around. this battle is not mine it is the lords, and i feel such a peace now knowing god has my back. i remember last week karen not knowing anything praying in the spirit and saying for god to remind me of all his faithfullness to me in the past. all week i thought of each time he has been faithful to me. too many to count. and jules thanks for the e card. it made my day. your awesome. i cant wait till me and paul can get away and visit you guys. god willing.......we all need each other, the enemy wants us to hide away and hold our pain in secret but god wants us to reach out to others and share our burdens and so fullfull the law. i love our body of believers and i am realizing they love me. thank you jesus..............

carnality

pastor frank preached on how their is carnality in our body, wow talk about right in your face. praise god, they are here to prepare us for the new pastor. he said thats why we dont enter in as we could. he left us with alot to think about. pastor kris sold his house. wow fast or what...............they will be here for vbs. i arranged for three people in the comunity to speak but havent got revelation on the fourth yet ,still waiting for god to reveal. i have asked for prayer from my sisters in christ for three days now, just to get thru each day. i cannot go thru this in my life without their prayers and they have been so good to me, and god has strengthened me, more each day. pastor frank said i need tougher skin and god is doing that. i dont want tougher skin.i am reading alot in job lately and for the first time ever i am appreciating this book. some of the scripture is beautiful and humbling, god is god and i am just susan, i dont get to pick my trials, he is in control and i HAVE to trust him. i finally picked two of my sisters in christ after prayer and let it all out, all the ugly dirty truth. i feel better now, i wish i couldve stood up in front of the whole church and just said what i was going thru, but i didnt feel led to do so.i dont care any more, and when god is done with this pastor frank said it will be a glorious testimony of our mighty god. i believe this.cant say i havent stayed humble cause i have. praise god..............