job

god has led me quite alot thru the book of job lately. i never really liked this book. i always thought how unfair. but was it? god is god and he can do what HE wants. i remember eva saying one night when she was a teenager she read job and got so mad she thru the book across the room and from that moment on till even now she has suffered with arthritis. scary...........while reading this verse stood out to me. job 30 20-31 ''i cry to you, but you do not answer me, i stand up and you regard me. but you have become cruel to me. with the strength of your hand you oppose me. you lift me up to the wind and cause me to ride on it. you spoil my success. for i know that you will bring me to death, and to the house appointed for all living. surely he would not stretch out his hand against a heap of ruins. if they cry out when he destrys it. have i not wept for him who was in trouble? has not my soul greived for the poor? but when i looked for good evil came to me. and when i waited for light then came darkness.my heart is in turmoil and cannot rest. days of affliction confront me. i go about morning, but not to the sun. istand up in the assembly and cry out for help. a am a brother of jackals. and a companion of ostiches,my skin grows black and falls from me.my bones burn with fever. my harp is turned to mourning. and my flute to the voice of those that weep. and then i read the end of the matterjob 4210 and the lord restored jobs losses, when he prayed for his friends, indeed the lord gave job twice as much as he had before.it is in no way implying i am like job because i could never measure up but we all have job like experiences and that is why this book is in here, for us as an example. praise god.

pressing thru

no salvation as of yet as i am waiting for opportunity but i feel like god reveales, aubrey, jackie and charlie who is the husband of th elady ialicia cleans for. he lost a leg in a motorcycle accident. he must be about 30 and has one kid. i see him at the baseball field and he talks to us all the time. he used to come up and swear every other word so one day i said charlie you are such a nice guy, why do you have to be so abrasive with that mouth of yours? it doesnt sound nice and i dont like it and im sure the kids do not want to hear it. that was a month ago and do you know he hasnt said one swear word and his dad told alicia he doesnt know how that happened as he has had a foul mouth for years , and even dish soap didnt work. praise god.when i felt god impression his name on my heart, i dont know why but i was surprised, i of course god loves charlie. just havent had the chance to witness to him. he always says theres alicias mom, sunshine, and hes always trying to get paul to do work for him. paul always says he has enough work. please pray. service on sunday was awesome, worship was beautiful and one person spoke out the word god had given them and pastor explained what was happening. he preached on never taking for granted our salvation. every week he shows a clip from the author of the book we are reading ''breakthru prayer'' man these are testimonies right out of the streets. god is amazing and nothing is impossible. pastor said we are not to be concerned with how full the pews are. or how much money comes in, but is gods word going out are we dooing his will even if some get hurt feelings. just do what god wants and let him work out the rest. praise god finally..........................

salvation

we have been going to a young mom named aubrey once a month since the start of food pantry outreach. she has three beautiful daughters and we have grown to care about her. she works a full time job at the hospital and just has trouble at the time her rent is due. so faithfully we come around each month during that time. we get to pray for her and her needs. now i feel is the time to lead her to christ. so please pray as i now feel led to go after this salvation and i know a praise report is coming.................praise god.........jewels in his crown for the reward of his suffering..

breakthru

praise god................big breakthru, the start of great things. one day i will give all these testimonies as god leads and people are not going to believe what god has done. psalm 128 when the lord brought back the captivity of zion, we were like those who dream. then our mouth was filled with laughter and our tongues with singing.then they said among the nations, the lord has done great things for them. the lord has done great thiongs for us and we are glad.praise god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

pressing thru

first of all, please if anyone is out there, please, pray for eunice, her blood pressure has been off the charts and they admitted her to the hospital today. i immediately couldnt stop crying. she has been such a help to me and what an example of christs love. every morning she gets up and prays for all of our husbands, and hers is passed away and she lost a child. her granddaughters renee and jackie are the best two young women. the apples did not fall far from that tree.well i am pressing thru the drama of my life. i thought man i would love to put those covers over my head and not come out. and then i realized this is the way i am, when its hard i want to give up. but everytime god makes me not give up. and then i see im stronger than i think. why do i need to be so strong?????????????????????????????i had true nervous breakdowns and had to call pastor frank for prayer, didnt say anthing but please pray and he did and both times what a tremendous amount of peace god extended to me. i just said evrytime i turn around its one thing after another and i have been hit harder than i ever have and he says in his calm soothing voice that is cause your biggest breakthru ever is coming. FAITH, praise god..................i though what a great way to start out with your new pastors, hi im the cry baby..........only kidding.i thought he has a true pastors heart. i remmeber a few years back god leading me to a study on a true pastors heart., i remember coming to these questions.do they have a diligent prayer life? do they have a sincere and pure devotion to god? do they manifest the fruit of the spirit? do they love sinners, hate wickedness and love righteousness? true leaders of christ will honor christ, lead the church to sanctification, preach the whole word of god, they will refuse to take large amounts of money for themselves, and seek to use it for gods work, not to say god doesnt want them to prosper .there are other ways to test also but these are the ones i recall.study to show thyselves approved a workman that needeth not be ashamed. well anyways i am seeing these qualities so far, thank god. well im rambling as i am tired. i have petitioned for more help in the food pantry with otreach for souls. pleas epray god prepares hearts. god bless

breakthru prayer

pastor frank has started a monthly book club, this month we will be reading ''breakthru prayer'' by jim cymbala. so today we saw a slide by the author on how prayer changed this heroin addicted man he knows, life. it was a wonderful testimony of gods grace. i think we were all touched. i cant wait till my book comes. it was jennas birthday so her friend baked this pistachio cake with whipped creme frosting and it was the largest cake i have seen there. wow..............karen who will be in charge of vbs got a hold of me to tell me she wants me to volunteer to be in charge of the service to the community part of it. i will be in charge of getting people that do outreach in the community to speak, so i said whatever i can do to help. the vbs is ''gods big backyard'' i am just so glad we will be having vbs, last year when rumour was we wouldnt be doing it, a few of us went into prayer, pleading with god to change that. the holy spirit brought to mind each family god had seriously helped thru this outreach. vbs is definetely gods heart................so praise god. pastor frank and donna have such a heart for unsaved people. they have such a heart for us. they want us to succeed, and they love the opportunity to be used by god.the timing is perfect, but isnt that gods way. they keep saying sometimes god allows all these things in your life that you cannot fix so you can lean more on him and watch him fix them. he is our source in everything. it is definetely a growing experience for me.....lisa is not back yet and man is it different without her to talk to. she did call to ask if i passed my test, as she has been praying all along. i hope she is having a wonderful time. our church is growing with new converts and i truly believe if you just do what god wants he will bring the people in. pastor frank said we will see more unsaved then saved. wow fertile ground................well the food pantry is alive and well and praying for a new spin...............whatever god wants.

kasey chambers million tears

i really like the soft sound, with a rough edge of kasey chambers

Kasey Chambers - Not Pretty Enough

i have always loved this song

pay off

WOOH.........TODAY WAS TEST DAY...........I PASSED ON MY WRITTEN WITH A 100. and my driving i passed too. we did have three of us testing, as the guy who we thought bailed was there for testing. i am the only one out of us who passed with a 100, so praise god, and i am not sure if they passed the road as i got to go home as i asked to test first. the inspector said he hasnt seen a 100 in ages. unbelievable.....................praise god. one part of my life looking upwards.i am now an official driving instructor, just gotta wait for my license to come in the mail, and i am on the road.....................who wouldve thought??????????????f

god is still god................

wow, what a rollercoaster of a week of emotions. i feel like im running this race and every distraction is being thrown at me to get me out, and i am at a walk pace, quite dissalusioned, but i feel myself getting sick of feeling sorry for myself and getting ready to put up a fight. oh i am so hurt at all the things that we have been thru, i know god has a purpose but i have no clue to what it is.........'' yet though he slay me, yet will i trust him;; is the only verse that comes on my heart. god is still god, but in my minute mind and perception to things, i am hurt..............where is the breather????i have been stydying for my test which will be in a couple of days, pressing thru all these things, i said man this job has gotta to have more perks down the road then i can even know..........its just got too. one of the three has bailed so its down to me and mike, and she tested us yesterday, and i got double right this time. i am still in this.............taking lisa's daughter, brida, sabrina out for one last brush up on the road lesson and i will study some more and then it is all i got..........this has been a learning time for me on pacing myself, going the extra mile even though its hard and i have seen some results. well i hope i make it, i sure expect too. lisa is leaving in the morning for south carolina to see mel graduate from bootcamp, i am so happy for her. we have walked together thru so much this year with the food pantry, her not being employed , my children. me, her dad, man bittersweet year. she deserves this, she has been a good friend and sister in christ, and i thank god for her. please pray she has a GREAT time. my prayer life has stunk, i cannot fake my walk with god, i never will, my faith has been shaken, but i know god is still god, and he is in control and i say this thru tears.......knowing he loves us and he knows what is happening here even though i am in shock. even my marriage has taken a beaten but i have definetely seen god use this to change us.......praise god.......................