Pastor Rance Allen- If You Believe He'll See You Through

PRAISE GOD.......................

Because of who YOU Are

beautiful praise god

Martha Munizzi

Martha Munizzi Renew Me

my prayer

MercyMe - Bring The Rain

amen

Here With Me - MercyMe

this is my heart....

Mercy Me - Word of God Speak

this is the first time i have heard this, relevant

Mercy Me - I can Only Imagine

the first time i heard this , i had to drop to my knees

Everything by Lifehouse

i still want this as my backgroung for my blog.......i want marc mesereau to sing this. it is perfect for his voice. never know.....

warfare week

today was my first day back since friday to classroom and it was refreshing...............i have had the rollercoaster week of....i actually dont know what to call it. so many questions to why????????? this has been an awful week, and while it has all worked out as god promised, i had to walk thru those waters that didnt sweep over me, and go thru those fires that didnt burn me, and honestly this time i was hurt and i was mad. i am so tired of going thru something, i had to check myself to make sure i wasnt being rude to god. that sure wouldnt be to my benefit, although i know he understands, i just dont want to be unappreciative, but man sometimes, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH>>>>>>>>>>..i cant apologize for that. but god knows, and as i said class was refreshing, we went over all our study notes and man this job requires alot out of us. but i so want to do it, and at some point i will....please pray i can absorb all this knowledge i will need to know and focus. i know this is a way to some extent, of answered prayer as for years i would say god, please help me focus. i have so much trouble in that area and i believe that comes from being an abused kid, trying to forget and escape. well god knows how for me to get it right.praise god.......

psalm 137

i was just thinking about this scripture, and how it relates to pastor donna's word today.

By the rivers of babylon we sat and wept, when we remembered zion.there on the poplars we hung our harps, for there our captors askd us for songs,our tormentors demanded songs of joy.they said ''sing us one of the songs of zion'' how can we sing the songs of the lord, while in a foreign land? if i forget you o jerusalem, may my right hand forget his skill, may my tongue cling to the roof of my mouth, if i do not remember you, if i do not consider jerusalem my cheifest joy. i love this word and god ahs given it to me many times, my teeth has been the most significant. but remembering what pastor said , god doesnt want us to look at the circimstances of the situations, no matter how big they may be, he wanted us to look at him and remember who HE was and that he was bigger than any problem we had and believe this............it was relevant and humbling, god knows.............

Sara Bareilles,

this is the new song in my head...........

nice service

today was a nice service, alot are preparing for the easter musical next week. i have been so tired lately,went more out of obligation than desire but the holy spirit was sweet there today and when pastor donna started giving the word in prophetic unction i could feel the holy spirit hit me like fire, i knew god was saying''pay attention;; she just states the word as god said, no hesitation, no doubt, standing in gods authority. wow...........god wants us to know how mighty he is and BELIEVE it. i was humbled. also marc mesereau did a solo and it was so sweet, the holy spirit was all over it cause it was sincere. i love when he sings.and praise god jenna announced the start to the princess and the kiss ministry/ oh how god has been preparing her. what a beautiful transformation. thank you jesus. we are sending out invites for our easter musical so i am getting these out now. may god be glorified. if i be lifted up, i will draw all men unto me. may we do it in such a way, people will be drawn to HIM................

Christina Aguilera-

christina has one of the most beautiful naturally gifted voices i have ever heard and i like this song....................

Mariah Carey - One Sweet Day

i always liked this song, i love music

testing

well today was test time, and as sad as i am to say i failed the written which meant i never got to the driving part, the other two guys failed too. so, while i am dissapointed, i definetely dont feel as bad. i put such an emphasis on getting comfortable on the road and have gone out over and over again with a couple tenagers i know who have their permits that i went in today confident of the road test. who wouldve ever thought i would say that? i told my teacher today, that although i may have been the hardest to teach, in the end i will be one of the better instructors. i believe that, as i will master this, and i get along very well with this age group. im sorry that i dont get paid until i pass, so i am broke, but up ahead are good things......praise god

week of rest

got a break from driving for the week as our test was postponed. i needed it, but now is time to go over all i have learned. please pray for me, as this is the hardest thing i have done in a long time, and i have put in the most effort ever........... lisa and i spent the day together and she is doing better, she is going to go to school to be a cna, so please keep her in prayer as she launches out to new beginnings. she misses her dad but he did not suffer. thank god. and he left the girls something which no one would ever want that way but it will help her in her new start........she already started giving, her compassion for people has grown in leaps and bounds, god has used her tremendously,she cares about people. this comes from god. praise jesus. we will be paving the church driveway soon as the new pastor has had this burden from the start. it will be nice to not drive in a ton of mud any more. the new pastors are restoring some order back we lost. we ahve grown in leaps and bounds and i like how we all have maintained our positions but we still need to learn and be teachable. always more to learn.......i was thinking the other day how i never mention the berubes and how involved they have been in all that has gone on. they are so plugged in to the growth in every way, i am thankful to have both of them in our body. and eunice, isabelle, lynn, karen kibbe and grace. and marc and tom from worship team have grown in leaps and bounds. god is so faithful even when we are not so faithful to everything. i know this first hand. it is humbling.........and our new pastor donna functions in the prophetic and it flows freely, something i have not ever seen. wow god has brought us a long.....way.pastor frank has such a heart for people. he looves them and you can see his heart is for us to grow in our relationship with jesus, god has quite a team there, and i believe we are going to grow a lot. the word that comes is refining, ugh...........sorry god but i know growing and stretching sometimes hurts.but is necessary.my worst times in the natural have been some of my best times in spiritual growth, but it wasnt easy but when i look back it was all necessary and beneficial to me in the long run to my walk with god. i have so far to go. food pantry is a little slower but steady, its funny how it works perfectly with my time available. i have a delivery on thursday to a lady i have been praying for . for years now. she was so glad it was me and i was glad it was her, please pray i can minister to her every way god wants. well the easter musical is soon, the princess ministry is soon whether jenna does it or me, i am not sure yet, and vbs is coming. preparation........ i am excited, tired but excited. i just gotta pass this test and go on from there. julie lightner has invited me down with cathy in may, hope time permits this as it would be so nice to see julie and family, i love them they are a great family and jules is fun..............i could really enjoy spending some time with her and the kid must have grown so much. well, god willing.

MADE IT

made it thru lisa's dad's wake. was reluctant feeling before i got there, worked today, then got a call for emegency delivery of food. so had to rush finding something to wear, nothing fits anymore, and run to the store, the church, to the families house then to the wake. once i got there though, it was one of the best times i have had in a long time, i saw people i havent seen in ages, and lisa made deb and me sit with her and stay, so we talked alot to her. she was doing so good, melanie flew home from boot camp, so her being home for a few days made lisa happy. melanie looks great. if noone knows, she is stationed in south carolins unitl june.she is in the national guard. go mel............they had a memory board with all the pictures form the pizza shop, lisa's family owned when we were kids. lisa was so skinny............memories. we are getting old, .but we had good times as teenagers and lisa and i have stayed friends thru it all. she is a gift to me from god. who wouldve known.her mom gloria who is at the beginning of alzheimers, said ''susan.''..i have always loved you..same thing ron daigles mom says to me. i love both of them too.so many people marveled at the way my mom hardly changes and someone said i look great. yeah right........thats what i said to, i dont know how to just say thank you to people. i know what i look like, ugh..........well tomorrow is the funeral and we are having a catered dinner at the church.

John John Kennedy The Prince Of America

A Tribute to John F. Kennedy Jr.

i still collect john john memorabilia, ever since i was a teenager.

Keith Urban - You'll Think of Me (Best Live Performance)

this is an awesome song

What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts

i really enjoy listening to rascal flats. distinctive voice...........

ugh

went to church today, although i will say honestly. my heart was not in it. had a couple food pantry deliveries that were already promised, so i wasnt slacking there. i have so much on my mind, and man this driving is really stressing. shouldnt be so hard. i have decided not to make it so hard , i will try and that is it.........and lisa, that just breaks my heart. the first thing she said is sqwuuz, i didnt get to say goodbye. and what am suppose to say, i feel like crying for her. the wake will be tues and funeral wednesday, with dinner afterwards at our church. i have to be strong and help lisa and her family, and this week is my test. i really need prayer, when i get overwhelmd i shut down mentally, i feel that happening. NOT A GOOD TIME> and today after lazing around all day yesterday, i just came in from church thinking ugh this house needs a good cleaning, and here in the house comes brother byron, wanted to crawl in a hole and wither away, but he had come to talk to jordan, byron has a good heart........but i sure hope i can show him a clean house next time. ugh..............betcha there house is always clean. ugh...........