Friday, February 29, 2008

life is meaningless

everytime someone dies, i say this. to me i hate the thought of someone here one moment and then gone like they never were even here to begin with. my best friend lisa called me today and i knew right way something was terribly wrong.her dad has passed away, wasnt even sick, looked great all the time. i taked to her niece, her sister, one of her daughters and her son, all in one day, looking for reasoning. i felt totally at such a loss of words for all of them. this is the third person in lisas family i have had to watch her suffer thru in the 35 years i have been friends with her. i love lisa and her family, and i feel for all of them. they are a strong family. i care about all of them. please keep them in prayer. i couldnt even imagine not knowing jesus and trying to reason out death, sometimes even with jesus it is hard but it is bearable.i will miss wilbur myself, and am so thnakfull he was saved, but what about those we truly love that arent saved, that would not feel good at all and not seem fair. i just dont know......... but in my heart of hurts even though i dont understand a whole lot of things, god is still good. he is god,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

joshua 10-24

''when they had brought these kings to joshua, he summoned all the men of israel and said to the army commanders who had come with them,;come here and put your feet on the necks of these kings. so they came forward and placed their feet on their necks.'' i really believe god is saying KEEP your feet on the enemys neck.this is more relevant than i even know, lately god has shown up gloriously in our midst, but on the othe side of that i have gotten attacked one thing after another, it started to wear me down, exactly what the enemy wants. i know god sent that woman yesterday to remind me to take my stand, he has given us all authority over the enemy, and all month god has reminded me of my words.i have to consciously line my mouth up with what god says and not what i see. faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen. it is so hard to balance things , now that i am more involved in ''church things'' which not to say are unimportant, but god has never worked in my life thru what i have done for him, but thru the time i have spent with him..............thats why the story of mary at jesus's feet is so relevant and martha got so mad, she felt she was doing all the work, but jesus cares do we have a relationship with HIM. how quickly he will wake me up, whatever it takes when i get off track. praise god.......

Monday, February 25, 2008

GOD IS GOOD

i have been hit so hard in a few areas of my life, the enemy is always trying to wear me down, but god in his awesome faithfullness, sent someone my way today to remind me of who I REALLY AM IN CHRIST. THANK YOU JESUS, i will not stand on the sidelines any longer , i am in this fight. god always causes me to truimph in christ jesus. thank you jesus...........

tired

today, to be honest and real i want to say, i am tired of pressing thru all the junk.......................................................................................when does it EVER end???? I AM TIRED..........................

Friday, February 22, 2008

valentines day and my birthday

very peaceful day, they cancelled class for the day and everyone is out and about so the house is MINE. it is so quiet, i need clearing of the mind time. thank you jesus. my new boss, ci ci called and wants to spend individual time with out the guys with me next week. thank god...........i need it. i am looking at my dining room table, there area dozen orange roses, pink roses, orande and yellow tulips, about 10 beautiful cards two boxes of large half eaten choolates. i got totally blessed , thats why i love valentines day and my birthday, four days apart and it is awesome, but this year was just extra overboard. paul just spoiled me rotten with a large gift certificate to walmart, 2 dozen roses 2 boxes candythe best card, which is themost important gift to me personnally,, alicia jordan and laura splurged on this beautiful amethyst gold necklace. i love it, lisa gave me money to add to my gift certificate, and the women at the church gave me so many beautiful cards, my mom filled a bag with so many goodies, and my sister renee came with those beautiful tulips. god is soooo good.,memorable to say the least. not that gifts are the only thing that matters, but it sure is nice. especially when i didnt expect it. the snow is coming down so hard , it lookis pretty out there. well time to go study for the written part of my test which is coming. praise god.................

nat king cole - unforgettable

this song reminds me of paul...........

Crying Holy (Unto My Lord) w/ Vince Gill

i really like vince gill and bluegrass, makes you want to get up and move your feet

Tim McGraw - Something Like That

this is my favorite tim mcgraw song, although i love the softer ones to, this one hits the fun side of me...........

Faith Hill - It Matters To Me

i like faith hill, but this is the only song i really like that she sings, but i love all of her husbands songs tim mcgraw

Thursday, February 21, 2008

what did i get myself into

the only analagy that comes to mind to define the last 2 days of training is i am in the airplane, high up in the air, parachute on, the person in front of me is about to jump and uh oh here comes my turn. and i would NEVER skydive, but here i am...................my mind is so in overload, k turns merging head checks, position back up, the inspector is coming, i will need a hour and half route prepared, and i am illiterate when it comes to a map and have to pick up two teenagers back to back in two different towns on roads i have never even heard of. UGH>>>>>>>>>>>>the two guys i am training with, mike and glen have done everything they could do to give me a crash course on reading a map, and i will say i am getting it, but realistically it will take more than the few days i have to learn it. but no matter what, it is now my mission to read a map, and master it. i talked to paul, honey i really need a gps system. glen has a portable one, and i think i will need this, and even then, i am totally out of my comfort zone. my instrutor ci ci hates out of your comfort zone, that is like out of her vocabulary, she just believes you want to learn? then you will learn.period.........i like her she is positive and right away because of her training i do not knock myself down in front of others , because if you doubt yourself others will doubt you and i have done that alot in the past. but scared, yes.want to quit right here, yes. will i?ABSOLUTELY NOT........everywhere you have set your feet i have given you and i CAN do all things thru christ who strengthens me.god is stretchiiiiiing me.......................praise god........

Sunday, February 17, 2008

ministry

all the materials came in for the princess and the kiss ministry. jenna gave me one to look over and i couldnt wait to dive in. i read the story then started to go over the 21 life lesssons that will be taught in this class. i am at lesson nine and i have been hooked at # 1. i am writing a list of the things that will be needed to get us thru each class, such as notebooks, construction paper etc. i feel that because we only have 10 to start and this did cost 500.00, we will solely offer this first class to our body of young girls and those young girls in our families, after all we need this first. but these books can be used over and over again and i figured for 50-to 100 we can teach each other class to follow. at least once yearly as need arises or community interest. however god leads. I AM EXCITED.......now to spur jenna on..............the waters are troubled now....i am praying for a start of first week of april running into may. may god totally have his way with this important teaching.....praise god.

valentines day outreach dinner

last nights dinner was awesome. everyone came and the place was packed. pastor frank and pastor donna did a skit that was so funny and the holy spirit was all over it, i looked around and saw tears in some eyes, and children that were there stood up boldly to receive christ as their savior. there was so much food and the gifts took all thru the night to give away. i believe all had a great time. god really honored all our effort and how we all worked in unison. i just praise god for his faithfullness. byron stood up today and said this was the best outreach to the community we have had since he had started there back in 200, and it was effective.. and even after all that i went in to find a few bags to put away for food pantry. people had still done there shopping as they always do for our food outreach. i will say i was tired today and came home and took a little nap. but all was so worth it. we are having a easter outreach musical and they asked for volunteers to sing in it and so many stood up, even byron. wow.and karen kibbe and renee faberquist are the best singers, in talent and in true worship to our lord. music ministry is a booming for jesus. talents and gifts that have lied dormant are coming out of these people that we never even knew were there. praise god......................even some that havent been there in years have now resurfaced and are so willing tpo participate. this is an OUTREACH to the community body and god is all over that. the holy spirit moved in such a sweet way today, ifelt like my knees were going to buckle under me . i love jesus.........................

Saturday, February 16, 2008

god is good

last nite we set up for tonites dinner, it was a challenge as we have more people coming in then ever before, but with god if he is in it, it will work out and it did. praise god, tonite is going to be GREAT......... i finished my book on generational curses quite a while ago now and felt led to say that i dont believe that generational curses per say pertains to us as christians once we truly have accepted christ. we are a new creation, old things have passed away, behold all things have become new. but mindsets, behaviors habits, can carry over into the next generation and we need to bring them down with the help of the holy spirit and the renewing of our minds.applying gods word can do this, be not only hearers of the word, but doers of the word. i went for my first physical in seven years, had to for my new job and as i am overweight,big surprise. i got a good bill of health. praise god. i still have 20 20 vision which totally surprised as my eyes feel tired often.but he did say now is the time to change behavior patterns as i am closing in to an age that is crucial. ugh........my periphial vision is perfect which is very crucial to be a defensive driving instructor. i figured it had to be good as i am a good juggler and that takes this kind of vision. well i am working toward behavior changes in the area that need to be addressed so please keep me in prayer.god bless

Monday, February 11, 2008

When you say Nothing at all - Alison Krauss

i absolutely LOVE allison krause and union station

Sunday, February 10, 2008

ministry

looked in the cabinet in food pantry today and it was FULL. praise god.......rose preached today as the new interim pastors had a former previous engagement, she spoke on being used by god to reach out to others. i thank god for rose, i already know god is no respector of persons, men are no better in gods eyes than women. yes we are to be reverant to our husbands as they are to treat us as christ treats the church. there is a place for each of us. anyways i see how god uses rose and how she has stood the test of time thru alot of adversity, but she trusted god. her example as a leader to us is amazing. praise you jesus for rose. we have over 100 yes's to our valentines reach out dinner. halleluhah.......this will be a memorable night and the donations for give away gifts to bless them stands at record i am sure. our body is involved in the community and we are truly standing united. a three fold cord cannot easily be broken. and the worship team is coming along beautifully. wow have they grown and it is awesome. i believe as we continue to be obedient, we will be moving into a bigger building. we will need it at some point. i am done with classroom training for my new prospective job and am now entering on the road defensive driving......wooh.......i have already changed a few of my driving habits as i believe live what you teach. but as my teacher says it is not about can we drive it is about can we teach others to drive. i hope so, and i am giving this training all i have and feel the four of us are to be a great team. my weakness will be maps, finding the kids i am picking up, and implementing constuctive critisism , as i tend to not like to hurt others feeling. driving is a privelege so i can do what needs to be done. one area i will be trained in that will help me is in car mechanical safety. i will learn hos to check cars for inspection.cool.........i made 100 valentine candy roses for the dinner and did them in approx 10 hours. i painte deach mold separately, and they look so pretty but glad they are done. my time is so limited, i have to mangage things alot differently but i am learning. praise god.........................

Saturday, February 2, 2008

2008

started my first day of driving school training. i seem to be the only girl in class, but i am not intimidated, .i have to get fingerprinted, a criminal background check motor vehicle record pulled and a physical. i left dunkin donuts. yeah....................and i get to keep my cleaning job, going on 6 years at that job, god gave me that job, and i know he has kept me there.going to be interesting to say the least. i will try my best and we will see. the instructor said when we take the test the dmv instructor will purposely swerve off the road, and do things to catch you off guard, im like great.....................hope i dont yell at him. we are starting to get calls on our dinner at church and the new pastor and his wife will now be helping. on sunday the pastor and his brother in law were there, his wife was sick so she wasnt, i was just feeling a little worn out and discouraged, god used so many people that day to encourage me. and then at the end the brother in law approaches me and gives a encouraging word, he said god told him.. i just thought thanks god, cause sometimes life gets hard and the enemy steps up the pressure when he knows good is up ahead. AND IT IS>>>>>>>>>my two older grandchildren, justice and destiny will be 11 and 10 tomorrow. wow life has gone by. justice is such a good kid, his teachers always praise his behavior and eagerness to learn, he has a natural ability at sports and computers. i said justice , wow 11, what will that mean in 2 years? he says i will be a teenager, im like yeah, then he gives me his shy little grin and says boo, then i can get 10 nose rings and a lip ring. i couldnt stop laughing as i know him and he is totally not that kind of kid, but im am always so on him about things he loves to push my buttons. and destiny, she is little boo, i see so much of me in her. she loves people, very outgoing and loves to read and sing and be active in things, she is beautiful to me and so photogenic, her smile could light up a room. i so love all my grandchildren. god has been good to me.i stand in awe of god and the indivduality there in all 5 of them. i am firmer in certain ways with them than my own, and i see myself very much encouraging the gifts god has given them. god is good.